Get on Board . Why you are involved with Standing Rock. And you don’t even know it!

me-and-jan-svankmejerLet me first mention everything you read here is by my own experience with being Native and information i have learned and gathered on this subject. I feel the need to write about this, so you all can get on board! This involves ALL of US!

A brief background of me –

I am an artist living in New York, living day to day on my values and hard work in the arts as I freelance as a makeup artist and sculptor. I am 33 years old, I come from California of Chumash ancestry from my Mother’s side and Apache from my ‘fathers’ side. I did not grow up with any parents so, I can say I did not learn anything from them. All I know is from my Grandmother and my own efforts of trying to reconnect. There is truly a deep depression that runs in our bloodline and I feel that. But I am going to be the one to change that. By learning, reconnecting and having hope for a better future for our planet and humanity. 

I’m going to write this out, the same way I would have a conversation with you to get the need to know details without knowing anything about Native American/American Indian culture nor about what is currently happening.

This is so important because on DECEMBER 5th, there will be a major situation going down and I want you all to be informed.


International Indigenous Youth Council

Ladonna Brave Bull Allard – Sacred Stone Camp

Dallas Goldtooth – Indigenous Environmental Network

Indigenous People’s Power Project

David Archambault – Tribal Chairman-

“One of the most important things you can do, if you can’t be here. Is to pray. Send your prayers, whatever that looks like to you. You can pitch in. By going to . . These are places that people can go to, to get updated information. .  Follow and share the reality of what is happening and not the propaganda that continues to be perpetuated by the Morton County Sheriff’s department. …” – Kandi Mossett

Why am I so adamant on this event. STANDING ROCK?


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Well, everything that has been happening with Standing Rock  has led me into tears so I know it is changing me and pushing me to do something now. Because hey, no one is going to do it. We have to do it for ourselves.

Now what is Standing Rock?

Is a Native American reservation in North Dakota and South Dakota in the United States. It is now also a word to describe a historic movement in  Indigenous and environmental life on this planet.

What is a Reservation? – A legally designated area for the Native Americans to live on. (officially Prisoner of Wars Camps on government records.)

Standing Rock is the Great Sioux Reservation which according to the  “Treaty of Fort Laramie” 1868 included ALL of South Dakota West of the Missouri River, The Black Hills, The Missouri River, South of the Republican & Platte Rivers and East to Big Horn Mountains. more info here…


in 1877 The US Government discovered gold in the Black Hills and took that away that land without permissions. In 1980 the US Supreme Court’s

MR. JUSTICE BLACKMUN delivered the opinion of the Court.

“This case concerns the Black Hills of South Dakota, the Great Sioux Reservation, and a colorful, and in many respects tragic, chapter in the history of the Nation’s West. Although the litigation comes down to a claim of interest since 1877 on an award of over $17 million, it is necessary, in order to understand the controversy, to review at some length the chronology of the case and its factual setting.”

( case of a hit and run on Pine ridge reservation which brings in use the Treaty of Fort Laramie. )

What is a Treaty?

is any legally binding agreement between nations. Major contracts between states, armies, governments, and tribal groups.

Think of your apartment. The Government is your landlord and your lease is the treaty. Your lease says you have rights to be inside that one apartment. One day the landlord comes and takes away your bathroom, and then your kitchen, and then tells you to move farther away and in a much smaller apartment. This is what has happened to the first people on this continent. They kept getting moved, and pushed and rounded up into what now is a reservation.

Of course this is a simple analogy. Since Natives did not believe in owning property to begin with. You can not own your mother. Why would you own the land you are standing on? The water you drink, or the air you breath? The Native nations signed, because they had no choice – it was the only way to protect the land.

Why is the Treaty of Fort Laramie such a big deal right now?

If the Sioux Nation can get their original treaty re-instated by the Government. The land the Army Corps has control over would no longer be in their hands. Hence NO PIPELINE.

Why don’t the Sioux have the legal right to stop DAPL?

As mentioned above in the Treaty debacle, they no longer have rights to the particular area in which they are digging. Although, the Sioux have Sacred burial grounds in area in which DAPL are digging and doing construction. The Sioux have been on that land for the past 300,000 years. Ladonna Brave Bull Allard started the Sacred Stone Camp. Her son is buried where they dug up the land earlier this year in April. She had to do something.

Why does this concern you?

If you don’t stand up for this, the Government is basically able to sell you and your rights! As is shown with current affairs that have occurred within this past year alone.

If this pipeline goes through ALL – 17 million people who live downstream of the MISSOURI river will face contaminated water such has occurred in FLINT Michigan. Which includes; MISSOURI, NORTH DAKOTA, SOUTH DAKOTA, NEBRASKA, IOWA, MONTANA AND KANSAS, not to mention everyone downstream of the MISSISSIPPI river.

We are all made of water, without water we will not survive. The movement is to take a stand against corruption and stop the contamination of our planet for us and future generations.

Why hasn’t the local news channels mentioned this?

If you knew about this, it would not be in their best interest. (corporations)

What can you do?

You do what you can, with what you know, from where your are.

• Get the word out

• Donate

Clothing – Local drop off of Winter Clothing in Greenpoint Brooklyn

• Make Art/Music

• Be Aware/ Be Awake

• Join the DIVEST movement. Take your money out of big banks. #BANKEXIT  (Big banks are investing your money into projects like these. This particular pipeline is backed by All major banks; JP Chase Morgan, Bank of America, Wells Fargo, CitiBank, etc. ) Join a Federal Credit Union that suits your needs.

The company behind this project is

Energy Transfer Partners. The project is The Dakota Access Pipeline.

Sign this petition…


Blessings for All * On this day of Mourning……Thanksgiving


There is something huge happening right now! Help protect our water.

Please take the time to consider donating to any one of these confirmed links.

Your support will help the nation of Indigenous peoples of America to continue to fight for OUR water. For the future of your children and for us now, this is the time to come together and open your eyes and see that APATHY is not the way to a better future. We have to take control of our lives and not accept the way things are. We know in our hearts, that things are not right. Even more so than ever, this is our generations fight.

In case you have missed any of the news feeds on Social Media.          #NODAPL #WATERISLIFE #ISTANDWITHSTANDINGROCK #OCETISAKOWIN

FOLLOW “Dallas Goldtooth” on facebook for up to the minute updates.

As there is barely any news coverage on this topic at all! Standing Rock has been a topic of discussion for the last few months. ….(Video from Sep.9th 2016)….

Resilience and strength, thank you to all of the nations that are standing up for us now.

The big oil pipeline companies have come to North Dakota to drill a pipeline into the land of the sacred, through the entire country. They originally were supposed to go from Bismark North Dakota, but had to change that because the community of white people refused and said it was too great a risk. Then the company decided to change plans and put that pipeline on Indian Land instead. Proclaiming that they indeed consulted the council, in which they did not. And have gone through with their plans on constructing it. The ripped through sacred lands (nothing new – all over this country that has always happened). The youth created the movement to peacefully stop this from going through now. This past week has shown violence inflicted from the Morton County Sheriffs office onto peaceful water protectors. This is so unbearable to see and believe that this can happen again in our supposed evolved society.

David Archambault is the Chair of Standing Rock Sioux Tribal Government 

Unarmed Water Protector – Sophia Wilansky – (21 yrs old from NYC) Facing possible amputation of arm. Update from her progress….

Sophia was safely taken out of North Dakota for emergent surgery and is currently in stable condition. Below is her statement as conveyed by her father, lawyer Wayne Wilansky. “At around 4:30am after the police hit the bridge with water cannons and rubber bullets and pepper spray they lobbed a number of concussion grenades which are not supposed to be thrown at people directly at protesters or protectors as they want to be called. A grenade exploded right as it hit Sophia in the left forearm taking most of the undersurface of her left arm with it. Both her radial and ulnar artery were completely destroyed. Her radius was shattered and a large piece of it is missing. Her medial nerve is missing a large section as well. All of the muscle and soft tissue between her elbow and wrist were blown away. The police did not do this by accident – it was an intentional act of throwing it directly at her. Additionally police were shooting people in face and groin intending to do the most possible damage. Sophia will have surgery again tomorrow as bit by bit they try to rebuild a somewhat functioning arm and hand. The first surgery took a vein from her leg which they have implanted in her arm to take the place of the missing arteries. She will need multiple surgeries to try to gain some functional use of the arm and hand. She will be, every day for the foreseeable future, fearful of losing her arm and hand. There are no words to describe the pain of watching my daughter cry and say she was sorry for the pain she caused me and my wife. I died a thousand deaths today and will continue to do so for quite some time. I am left without the right words to describe the anguish of watching her look at her now alien arm and hand.” – statement from her father Wayne Wilansky

Sophia Wilansky’s Gofundme

Unarmed Water Protector Vanessa Sioux Z

Vanessa has been on the front lines fighting DAPL and working security for Oceti Sakowin since September 11. During the action on November 20 at the Backwater bridge, she was shot in the eye with a tear gas canister  6 feet away.  It was aimed directly at her face by a Morton County officer. She was seen at Bismark Sanford hospital and released because she had no insurance.  She has a detached retina and needs surgery to ensure her vision. She is now seeking medical attention in Fargo. Donations will be used for the cost of the 2 ER visits, surgery, medications, and recovery.” – description of incident

Vanessa’s Gofundme

The true colors of our country are shining through more than ever. The new beings and enlightened ones on this planet now, please join me and this campaign to save our planet and our future.


What can we do?

As Teal Swan would say

“You do what you do, from where you are, with what you have and know. That’s what you do!”

this message has resonated with me tremendously, from Teal Swan speaking on our new president elect. ..


History is horrific, humanity has caused great pain and suffering towards it’s brothers and sisters. I am certain that some of us have evolved to realize that the way the system is, is not the way it should be. It is unsustainable. It is gearing towards a calamity of no return. We know that, and we know that APATHY will not stop it.

Here’s a new documentary on where the planet is heading, with Leonardo DiCaprio as our host.


We know to trust the status quo and continue on the path of greed and materialism is foolish. It is laughably apparent with what just happened in our country.

The time is now, tomorrow is not 100%. I am not preaching, I am only a small voice knowing that I can not contain myself anymore to follow this societal life path. We all know that, who are we kidding. We believe that we will lose our homes and food and money and jobs if we step out of them. Maybe we will, but the truth is (in my belief) it’s going to happen anyway. Better to choose to make a change and empower ourselves. Educate your children and yourselves.

aweeds01As I have learned to open my heart from bitterness, thank you my Breeze for giving me love and lifting the stones off my heart.

My life path has shown me great struggle and survival skills. Coming from a place with no parents and only the support of my Grandmother when she was able to be there. I have learned in life to keep to my books and art.  For the world on the outside was complete nonsense and I chose to avoid any interactions with it at all possible cases. I did not believe in what everyone was doing nor how they treated each other. I went completely into myself and kept on going until I found myself here in New York where I have been for the last 10 years. Without the pain and suffering I would not have achieved and learned the things I know now.

So, on that note. I will write from my heart.


I am grateful to the great many that are now opening their eyes and hearts to what is happening right now in Standing Rock. I absolutely believe in this generation coming in to be here for the great time of change and to assist us in bringing in the new age. I know, some of you may think this sounds completely crazy. But again, I am writing from my heart and my own personal intuition. Everything I believe resonates with my understanding of what is happening right now. Things have gone one this way quietly for a very, very long time. Now it has intensified. Now is the time for change.

On my annual Anti-thanksgiving post here, I write for all of the people who may or may not know me. This is what I would say to you, to give your some insight on this American tradition that is basically blasphemy to any Native.

To those who are from America, everything you were taught in your school books is wrong. Please do your research. There is nothing worse than someone who is certain of something with no actual background or knowledge of it. This is no holiday to celebrate. This is a day in which the Indigenous of this nation shared food with you and welcomed you into our homes. Then they proceeded to systematically wipe out the entire countries population of Natives. Otherwise known as Genocide. This is why today is a day of mourning. This is why I cringe when people tell me to have a Happy Thanksgiving. It’s like saying ‘Happy Holocaust.’ This is when, I quietly swallow my teeth and die a little inside. I mean, I can’t be rude and real or can I?

To those of you who are NEW immigrants to this country and were not born here. I welcome you, everything you learn from passing your citizenship is a lie. There is usually no mention of what this country was actually made from. They skip that part and go straight to Freedom from Britain! Yay, new rules new country yay! Welcome to land of the free! The real details on the how this America was built is hard to find and is actually skewed in such a wrong direction it is horrific. Hollywood doesn’t help. at all!

To make peace with the land, please acknowledge the Natives. They are not ghosts, they are not gone. They are here, and somehow have less rights than you do! Reservations are not a fun place to visit or gawk they are sacred. They are deemed by the government (still on record by the way) as Prisoner of War Camps. Yes, like the internment camps/concentration camps. yes all of that shit. Given land that the white people did not want or saw no resources in .




Here is a movie to start you on..



[In the 1880s, after the U. S. Army’s defeat at the Battle of the Little Bighorn, the government continues to push Sioux Indians off their land. In Washington, D.C., Senator Henry Dawes (Aidan Quinn) introduces legislation to protect Native Americans rights. In South Dakota, schoolteacher Elaine Goodale (Anna Paquin) joins Sioux native and Western-educated Dr. Charles Eastman in working with tribe members. Meanwhile, Lakota Chief Sitting Bull refuses to give into mounting government pressures.] follow the link below to watch….

Let’s start with withdrawing your money from the big banks.


please follow my next post I will provide all the links and resources to start doing this with us.


Blessed be,


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Blue Loves Grandma Petra



The Importance of Grandma Petra. (Petra translatation=Hard Rock)


Her love transcends. Caring for all that are near and dear is her number one duty. On call, on hand for all. How many cakes has she created? There is no joy in her life like making a cake for a celebration and creating a party. She has enormous love and graceful skills in large gatherings.


I can only speak of my own life experience with her. She has been the guiding light in my childhood. It is safe to say without her & my grandfather -my brother and I would have been lost in the system. I don’t know how many other children she has raised. But my brother and I are definatley on that list. With her care and life lessons I have learned to also be resilent, honest, and hardworking. In most of what I tread in life, I think of her. Am I doing all that I can? Am I being lazy? “In her words, there is no such thing as being bored! Let me show you, what you can do….”

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Maybe this is going too deep and too new agey. But this is my safe space for words. But in my intuition and meditation, I feel like she has been in my previous lives. Perhaps in the last one we worked in an Abbey together. She has serious inclinations towards Nun habits. Dedication to serving others, minimalism and hard work. Delicate embrace and understanding of others. And she is just so darn cute and caring.


My heart is healing since I was last able to see her. Finding out she was in the hospital, was shocking. But it shouldn’t be, right? For anyone who is 79 years old, you would expect as much. But for her it was. Well, because I have never seen her lying in bed. I do not recall her ever being in the hospital! And she is my mother in a way. I am so happy that I could spend her 80th birthday with her. She had just woken up 1 day before. Previous to that she was on life support. The physical therapist that was moving her body, asked her if she wanted one thing for her birthday what would it be. She replied, “To make sure everyone is happy.”

IMG_8660I had to jump on a plane and try to get by her side while this was happening. I would not be able to move on with my life, if I did not try and be there. Well, because I can’t really afford to make a trip I had to come up with a way to help fund my travel. And that is where the gofund me campaign came in.
















Grandma Petra has been a big supporter of my artwork. Since I was little drawing on everything, building things with her and learning to cook with her.

IMG_8584For her birthday in n 2013, I gifted her an American Indian Artpiece. There is nothing she loves more than spending time with family and sharing food.

Grandma Petra

Native Peace
Native Peace

This campaign is a way for people to commission me to make dolls. I have succeeded in traveling down there. With that money and my aunt giving the family a space to crash I was able to stay a few days. Everyday that I saw her she was getting better and better. The life support came off, she began recovering. In about a week she recovered as much to be moved to a rehabiliton recovery center. Which I think was really fast for what her body was going through. Now we take everyday into the next.

Thank you to everyone for all of your love and support. New Dollies coming up! If anyone would like me to make some for you, can can still select the options on the campaign.


(Artwork will be available by September)




In closing I will say that I am so happy that I could be there for her recovery. She is still in need of a long rehabilitation, but we are no longer in the grey area. What would you do for someone that made a significant difference in your life? What wouldn’t you do?

Just for the heck of it and the love of my Grandma, here is an embarrassing picture of me with my brother Mark.



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Now that summer is here. How about let’s not….CULTURAL APPROPRIATION…

Morgan Mae 90 yr old Navajo Weaver
Morgan Mae 90 yr old Navajo Weaver
Summer Vibe Tribe Collection
Summer Vibe Tribe Collection

Hello dearest ones. This evening, I would like to share my view on what is happening in my world at the moment. I am dealing with cultural appropriation, smack in the face! Some of you, may or may not know I have a day job- which is working at a very global and popular makeup brand. In which I believed in for it’s founding father’s ethics. Artistry for artists and sharing that with the public, and it’s many socially aware programs. But those days seem to be long and lost. For this year I could not believe what has happened!  At this time this makeup brand has launched a ridiculous collection called “Vibe Tribe.” Ahem, excuse me? They should stick to silly collections, like Haute Dog and Washing Machines… Hey!

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Photo: Thyme Tomas

Wait a second, you can not take a Navajo Pattern, put it on all of your packaging. Name the collection TRIBE! Name your products ….”Arrowhead?, Wild Horses?!, Adobe Brick?!.” and then go on to defend themselves by saying it’s inspired by colors of the fucking desert and music festivals! That this collection has NOTHNG to do with Native Americans! Please don’t insult our intelligence. Are you crazy!? I am literally going insane looking at this stupid collection everyday, without being able to talk about how wrong it is.


Except here,

Allura Beauty has hit the nail on the head about this collection in further detail…in this video below.

This topic opens up discussions we should be having with each other about taking from other cultures without knowing what any of it means or where it came from.  Shall we ask ourselves … is having a cultural identity important?

Do we link ourselves to our ancestors? Do we as Americans know how?

Our closest connections to our heritage are with the elders in our families. They are our teachers and lineage. Do we pay attention to them, can we?

Knowing your elders, enables oneself to connect, to be rooted, to be ‘of’ somewhere. What if, you had no roots? You had no knowledge of where you came from, there was no communication from your family what traditions were stolen, hidden, erased……. or gone? We all have stories of loss and being despondent with our families for many reasons. Can we be sensitive with each other and not be so mean and disrespectful?

How can we find our future selves without a connection? These are the questions, I ask myself.

I cannot speak for others, but only of my story. One of traveling this life alone, with no guidance, support or family to learn from or lean on. I do a million times over thank my elders for being there for me and siblings as we would not have had a stable ground to stand on. Now, that I am older I can reflect on this and I understand why it was that way and I have no anger or resentment towards my family. I can only sympathize and understand what happened and why it happened. I can now offer my support to them, and I do so with my loving partner who has given me more strength to be patient.

Loving and learning about my family has opened up doorways into my heart that were long lost and closed. Those connections have become important to me in identifying myself and moving forward. The heritage that my family had, was shut off and suppressed through the generations of christian schooling and re-programming.

Mission with padres spanish soldiers and Native Americans

These stories are buried with my Great Grandmother Josephine with her long flowy silver hair (Chumash), she spoke of that time in the Mission Orphanages in Los Angeles as strict and terrifying. My Grandmother Petra lived in the era of great racism and depression. She had learned to assimilate into the white society that Los Angeles had become.(Los Angeles used to be covered in Orange Orchards!) She raised her kids with in the new America. Then came my mother-  there is my lineage. In somewhat of a short and fast history that I don’t want to completely make public knowledge. I feel a responsibility to hold a torch and show support to the American Indian Community.

And I guess, that is why I feel a desire to write about these topics. Well, quite honestly as many of you know….well… I am not much of a talker. I am rather a thinker/dreamer/observer. I will always allow others to express themselves. I do choose to share these topics with people that I feel would actually listen, otherwise I don’t waste my energy.

I don’t blame people for not being aware, but I do blame people for being blatantly strong in their opinions without the facts! Here is Marlon Brando speaking generally about the American Public being completely unaware of who Native Americans are….

I cannot summarize my story so briefly as to how I have come to these conclusions. But I can only share what is in my heart and what is of my understanding. To be good to others and support and fight for what is right. Simple facts I cannot ignore.

Cultural Appropriation. …Firstly, what is this? And how does it affect your everyday life? – How can one person, such as yourself make supportive decisions?

I am aware of course that this world is a shit show so to speak, and there are severe atrocities happening constantly. What can we do? I am with you, they hurt and we are of only one human life capacity. Or, are we? Yes, we are of one. But every’one’ touches another and another and another. Small enlightenments create larger enlightenments.

Where, am I going with this?

To be put simply. Balancing life and what the heck my tiny voice your voice/actions can do. Well, I only hope to spread awareness. And to help those who care, to not look so unaware and silly for taking part of Cultural Appropriation by buying this stuff with NO meaning.

Just Say No to Ambrosio copyThe point is CULTURAL APPROPRIATION is a term to describe an entity that completely takes another cultures identity and uses it as a means to profit. Without permission or giving due credit to where the hell the “INSPIRATION,” came from! MAdness! Any simple acknowledgement to at least educate the public, what the hell they are supporting, wearing – unknowingly promoting  without fully getting it!

Okay, can you follow me on an identifiable point..

misfitsjacketFor example, there are subcultures that we can identify ourselves within music, community and other things. Then we in turn, support these bands, communities and groups/and or ideas. By wearing a certain style, badge, button, patch because we are in line with the idea it represents. In using this analogy we can come to understand what it means to wear something from another culture. Do you ‘know’ what you are wearing? You do this everyday, whether you like it or not.

michaelkkorsIn this culturaly blind society, we see people wearing cultural identities without being the wiser. Because, consumers in turn believe they are being in trend! Some may use what they wear as a status symbol, yes yes you are in the Michael Kors club congratulations here is your cookie. Ohh, that’s a cute medicine bag – let me just see how much they are selling it at Urban fucking Outfitters!

Okay, I think it is totally fine to think something is cute and want to get it. But if you like something from another culture, Please for the love of the creator! Go on google and search for a REAL American Indian who made it! You can buy and support REAL NATIVE products from REAL living NATIVES! American Indians are NOT DEAD. They are alive, they have communities and are trying to carry on traditions or reawaken what was lost/stolen/forgotten/buried. They make things! Instead of supporting the fucking 1% corporate greed machine, support real people, support real Natives……hey you! In those mocassins! Buy them from Natives! Not the local DSW, Macy’s, Rag & Bone! grrrr.


Pictures I took just walking through Macys. Ralph Lauren Ponchos. …


Check out this list compiled on


if you are more inclined to do some research on Cultural Appropriation, please check out the link below. They go into this topic in greater detail.

Virgil Ortiz

Virgil_Ortiz_DenverArtMuseum_1w-copyHow incredible is the new and modern work of Virgil Ortiz! Ortiz makes traditional Cochiti figurative pottery, experimental figurative pottery, traditional pottery vessels, and designer clothing. Wow, yes and yes. Coming from a Cochiti pottery heritage he uses these traditions and fuses this artwork into a new storyline for our time now and beyond.

madeinnativeamericaHe has also started a foundation called “Made in Native America.” Which enables his tribe and community to work from this label and support their community. Natives making Native Art, Fashion, and Textiles for all.

The Pueblo Revolt New Mexico

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Thank you, for taking the time to read my thoughts.

P.S. for the love of the Creator

Please stop saying you are 1/4 Cherokee, when striking up a conversation about American Indians just listen. You don’t need to show your badge. It IS a THING! 80% of people I have  talked to about American Indians has immediately talked about their great grandmother being a full blood cherokee. Why only Cherokee? Why not ANY other tribe? and there are so many other dumb things people say..

I am not talking about my friends, if you want to be my friend please don’t irritate me with this stuff….

Good Night,

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DeMystifying the Native Americans

Demystifyin Natives


Why hello, it’s that time of year once again. A time where we say happy thanksgiving to each other and tell each other how thankful we are. … Can we do that on a regular basis and not just on this one day. Are we not thankful every day for what we have, who we love and what blessings we have experienced?

This holiday is so embarrassing.

If this feast was the only thing the American government could come up with to bring some kind of cheerful note to the starting of the nation with the Indian situation, well.. it makes sense. The rest of the history of the Native relations and the American Governments are horrible! Can we say crusaders? Can we say the Inquistion?! Geez – humans

“If Aliens visit us, the outcome would be much as when Columbus landed in America, which didn’t turn out well for the Native Americans…”

  • Steven Hawkings

Happy Thankstaking! As this is what it really means.

National Day of Mourning Stone

This stone is at Plymouth Rock, as a reminder of the mass atrocities that have fallen on the Native peoples of Turtle Island before this was re-claimed as “The United States of America.”

“Our nation was born in genocide when it embraced the doctrine that the original American, the Indian, was an inferior race. Even before there were large numbers of Negroes on our shore, the scar of racial hatred had already disfigured colonial society. From the sixteenth century forward, blood flowed in battles over racial supremacy. We are perhaps the only nation which tried as a matter of national policy to wipe out its indigenous population. Moreover, we elevated that tragic experience into a noble crusade. Indeed, even today we have not permitted ourselves to reject or feel remorse for this shameful episode. Our literature, our films, our drama, our folklore all exalt it. Our children are still taught to respect the violence which reduced a red-skinned people of an earlier culture into a few fragmented groups herded into impoverished reservations.” – Martin Luther King Jr.


The reason behind “Demystifying Native Americans,” is that as a Native person growing up in this modern world ruled by the European classes. I have always felt that as a society, people just don’t know anything about Native Americans. That it seems to just be grouped into the “Oh, they don’t really exist anymore.” Such as Dragons and Unicorns. They are revered for their mystery and style, but not for what they really are. Everyone wants to be one as a child and or for Halloween. But hey! Being a Native American is not a Costume!!! How would it look if you dressed as any other race? It’s almost as America has a deaf ear when it comes down to Native American education. Learning the reality would make you feel –somewhat less American…where’s that American pride..?

on a lighter note:

1491s are sooo funny. Natives doing comedy…

And no, Native Americans are not rich because they have casinos! Argh, I can go on and on about that. But that is for another day.

And from the Daily Show earlier this year…

The point is, please people educated yourselves before forming solid opinions. Just like anything, have an open mind and be willing to see all sides of a story before eating the beliefs people feed you. (ie..your elmentary school! )

Here’s a brief and funny take on that by MTV shot this year.

I mean, what would they actually teach you in school?

….”Well you see, life is conquer all and everything possible, then spread your beliefs! This is the story of our great country and it’s forefathers…

“If it be the design of Providence to exterminate these savages in order to make room for cultivators of earth. It seems not possible that rums may be the appointed means.” – Benjamin Franklin

and so on..

“The immediate objectives are the total destruction and devastation of their settlements and the capture of as many prisoners of every age and sex as possible. It will be essential to ruin their crops in the ground and prevent their planting more.”  –        George Washington

On a closing notation.

Can we all just be kind and listen and hold your opinions and tongues. I hope to one day see an end to the ugly side of humanity. Until then I will be in my artworld.

Signing off,

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Thanksgiving / Thanks taking. What are we really celebrating?

Blue Rose

Ok. Here we again on this festive day, every year this occurs. Every year families gather to enjoy each other’s company. I really enjoy the fact that people make a point to get together, I just wish it wasn’t on the day of “Thanksgiving.” The word in itself meant to be so thankful to the Lord for having achieved victory over the Heathen Savages (Natives) and having completely eradicated them from the land. I think there needs to be a time in our country where we all take the real history seriously and get over being a Super American refusing to believe the pioneers of this country did great wrong and lead this nation in believing lies & myths. There needs to be a real honoring of the ancestors of this land. A little acknowledgement would go a long way in the healing of the great wounds.

Here is a video by the late Russel Means a Native American Activist who led the American Indian Movement’s  “Wounded Knee Standoff “ in South Dakota at the Pine Ridge Reservation, in order to reopen negotiations with the Government on broken treaties ( More info here: )… in which Marlon Brando refused to pick up his Oscar Award, and had Native Sacheen Littlefeather to pick it up for him to draw attention to this stand-off.

Here is Russell Means take on this holiday… Thanks taking video

This day is a day of mourning for Native Americans to remember their ancestors who were massacred. On this day “Squanto” and his tribe enjoyed food with the Pilgrims after he had taught them how to grow food and survive. But before this, as a child ‘Squanto’ was sold as a slave to Spain. ( Native Americans were taken from this country and sold as slaves.) He made his way to England and later learned their language in order for him to find his way back home at Cape Cod. He arrived to his Village to find that his whole family and tribe had vanished from disease and were killed.

Now, this is when the pilgrims arrived and the story began. After this day of sharing food, the Indians where systematically killed. And the word THANKSGIVING was used to symbolism the Pilgrims thankfulness for having killed the heathen savages. And the pilgrims would celebrate their victories by sharing food and thanking the lord. They used this day so much, George Washington decided there should only be one day they should celebrate this day. And eventually Abraham Lincoln declared it a National Holiday that we celebrate today.

I know that we are brought up around this tradition with little thought of what it actually means. As a child you just associate this holiday to gatherings with your family and enjoying wonderful food that was cooked by your Grandma and your Mom. It was a nice calm time to spend with the family.

We are not taught the truth, it is up to us to learn and grow from what is out there. What resonates with you, where you take that and what it means. To me, it is quite meaningful I can not celebrate this holiday. I am Chumash and Apache and I want to honor my ancestry not ignore it. The time is now, my family has felt shame from it and I can not speak for them. But I speak for myself as Native living in this crazy yet exciting time in the world. I have hope that their will be an enlightenment in my lifetime. This day is just to sad, and I consider it a day of Mourning. I’ve have decided to take an incredibly out there work shift from 8pm – 6 am. I write this post, and I send love and peace to the Natives forgotten.

Plymouth Rock mourning Stone.National Day of Mourning Stone

More on Thanksgiving by Native Americans of today.

Orphaned Ghost Doll “Hakidonmuya”

Introducing Hakidonmuya, which translates to time of waiting moon in Hopi.

Orphan Ghost Doll Hakidonmuya was the elder of the Ghost children. She is quite different from the others in the orphanage as she was the friend of the children in the orphanage. She would visit the children in their dreams to play with them and counsel them with their troubles. The children did not know she was in fact real. She did  live in the same orphanage many many moons before they. She had been at the orphanage so long she forgot she was once a real person.

Her worry keeps her attention on the children, and she seems to always be in that state.

Hakidonmuya’s clothing is hand sewn using the same beige vintage fabric as her body. She wears a metal rose on her chest and a vintage lace hood that can be pulled back to reveal her hair. Her hair is synthetic and hand sewn into her fabric head.
She also has twig nubs for feet and hands! Her face is sculpted with polymer clay and painted with makeup then sealed with a matte sealer. She is very lightweight and so very adorable.

∆      A special thank you to Kelly Kotulak, she provided these special handmade aura eyeballs for me. Thank you!   ∆

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Hakidonmuya is waiting for the perfect home to protect.

She can be purchased here: Ghost Orphan Hakidonmuya



R.I.P “James Blackthorn Bentley” September 5th 1976 – July 22nd 2013 : My Eulogy to Jim

Image    It is with great sadness in my heart as I write this. It still hasn’t fully come down on me that Jim, Jim! Is dead…I am completely shocked. I heard the news on the morning of July 23rd. The skies here in Arkansas were darkening. I couldn’t believe it. As the news and details came in,

“The sky became cloaked in the darkest grey clouds I have seen.                                                                                                  The storms rolled in. It  became the longest day of lighting and thunder rolling off the deep woods into the late night. One point in the day the clouds opened up and with a tiny light shining through, the light was filtered muddy as if all things lay inside a dream. The sky grey and red, all that was reflected  soft and grey. I thought Jim must have been there. I can’t express the emptiness and guilt that came with that day.”

Jim was funny, loving, nuturing, crazy, inspiring, brilliant, an engineering genius and weirdo –  and we all loved him so much. He was one of the most geniuine and sincere as a person could be. He had something so special – he truly was himself and could see right through every person to find their real self.    He was    –   selfless and cared so much about other people he would always go out of the way to do what was right for them. He showed me and Rabbits  great kindness.. .

Martini glass stuck in the wall at XPO. .
photo: Andy Mecca

It was only last summer that our XPO crew was melting away in the Fort, planning the events and business challenges at XPO with Game of Thrones playing on  loop in the background at the Fort. These past 2 years we worked hard, partied hard, struggled and built together with Jim and the crew. One solid group of friends/misfits/freaks- Jonny Aquadora, Jim Bentley, Johnny Madison (Rabbits), Lulu Cipher, and myself Embry Blue (the Blue Witch), and later on Michael Ban or as Jim called him “Chimmey Chow!.” Last summer we’d party with Jim, laugh at his crazy stunts and work side by side with him. Like the  many times he broke glasses at the bar. The martini glass in the wall- Of course – Only Jim. He had a sincere gentle heart, he loved and cared for people – I can’t say that enough. A true rarity in today’s world. He hurt and felt the pain of others, had a sense of justice & truth. He worked hard and had pride in accomplishing the impossible. Night after night daybreak after daybreak. We’d be in the basement climbing through rumble and grime and always felt a sense of duty. 

Jim on top of the bar that he built with Jonny Aquadora & Rabbits. With the silver mannequins I lugged over from Queens that day for the bar. photo: Embry Blue

My experience with Jim was through Party Xpo. I know a lot of people have a love hate relationship with this place, as do I. But this is the place all of us really became a supernatural pirate ship, —————sailing away night after night.

we played this song night after night. before the xpo shows. gearing up for the bands after working together all day to get the space ready for them…

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Jim had put in a tremendous amount of work at Xpo. Building constantly, improving the sound quality, making sure all the bands were taken care of loading them in hanging out with the bands downstairs. Just truly loving the community. I’m sure all can attest to his sincerity and lust for life just to be with you at that moment. I’m sorry Jim! I’m Sorry Jim! I’m Sorry Jim. I”m sorry I’m Sorry. I”m sorry  im sorry im sorry.  . I wished we would have stayed . …….

this song we play almost every night at XPO while beat, warped, and heading out . singing along with each other every night. No matter what , it always felt like we where there for each other.  . . no matter what all the dramas where… we where all still glad to be with each other. . . 

My heart beats out of my chest as I write this, and can’t help to break down and cry every time I continue to write this. I know I must say something, I was not able to say anything at his funeral memorial – I just couldn’t bear it – but I  need to say something  – his life was precious – and I know – he was precious – I know – I know . Time is still not enough to make this any easier.  His Birthday was yesterday, . I was in NY with the ones who where with him the last days., this is and was the worst thing to deal with. How does one prepare to face such a tragic and guilty circumstance. If If If IF If iF if fifiififiifififi.

is all we are able to think about.  he needed us and didn’t want to say because selfish is just not jim. and we know it.

I lived with him and he was the best person to live with. He felt others before he could feel himself. He hated the world and what it did to people. I loved how he just wanted to “hang out” just to be with you. He wanted to work and make others happy.  I loved Jim, you can never know a person like him .  I wish I would have expressed my appreciation of him. I know Rabbits did, I ‘m just not the sort of person to say things like that. —-Through this I realize how important it is to tell people how much you love and appreciate them. You never know what they are going through. They will never tell you. Just tell them you love them. 😦

They will never tell you. they will never tell you . . .

this is still hard to understand and deal with  😦

RIP Dennis Anver August 27th 1958 – November 5th 2012

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“Stalking Cat”

So sad to hear of Dennis Anver’s passing. I am always moved by someone who has the courage to full heartedly put their lives into what they believe in. I truly believe all people should follow their highest passion, in finding themselves and living it. He was an example of that. After all, the most important things are what makes you feel yourself and gives you a place in the spectrum of mediocrity that surrounds us. .

Dennis Avner, who was of Lakota and Huron heritage, was famous for having changed his appearance with tattoos, implants, and surgeries and other accessories that included contact lenses, custom-made teeth, and false whiskers. He also was known to wear a large prosthetic tail.

His reason for such extreme modifications, he said, was a Native tradition. According to Shannon Larratt, Avner “identified strongly with his feline totem animals and in what he told me was a Huron traditional of actually adopting the physical form of ones totem, he transformed himself not just into a tiger, but a female tiger at that.” Avner’s formal totem-derived name was “Stalking Cat,” although his friends called him Cat or Tiger.

– “indian country today media network”

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Native Peace


Native PeaceYesterday I celebrated my grandmother’s 77th Birthday.  I have not had the chance to celebrate a birthday with her for many many years. She has been a very important figure in my life in shaping my strength and views. I have seen through the years how much she has handled and how resilient one can be. Having come from a Native American [Chumash Indian] family raising her siblings, and pushing through the years of inequality. I am amazed over and over again, in what she had accomplished.  For example, last night I learned how she used to swing from canyon rocks excavating ancient grounds locating Native American Artifacts for the museums! What?! They used to call her “Rambo.”  Well her name does actually translate to “Hard Rock.”

We celebrated with family and my amazing partner had sung some of her favorite songs while playing guitar. Truly a wonderful night for her and the family. I am lucky to have the time to appreciated it.

Grandma Petra
Grandma Petra

I made her something to represent her strength and  honor in our heritage. I know through the years of her era growing up 30s, 40s, 50s, and so on. These years where very hard on races, especially Native’s. So much so, that Native’s where in fact forced to give up and be ashamed of their heritage! They were forced to cut their hair short and be a part of white society. Starting with my great grandmother Josephine, whom was taken from her family and forced into Mission Orphanages. These were set up to eradicate Native American culture. And in a word to “missionize” them. Give them religion, and strip them of culture. Unbelievable, right? There are many, many injustices in this world, and that was just one point.  – Anyho I made her a figure set in a Native background. .representing “Native Peace.”