Meeting Guillermo del Toro & Doug Jones <3

Meeting Guillermo del Toro and Doug Jones was that moment in my life where time stood still and I could not be anywhere, but still in that moment. As if I were meeting for the first time, a living being from the planet that I felt home to. It is in these moments that I remember why I am continuing to strive for the life I want. A place where creation is fluid and there are no restraints to the imagination. A place where there are no fluorescent lights evaporating the vision into a distant dreamlike memory. Am I crazy, yes most certainly. Am I deluded in thinking I can live the Art Life? Well, when there is nothing else to believe in – yes. I have realized that my most sincere thoughts as a child were.. why am I alive? why does any of this exist? I’d rather be sleeping, there is so much more going on there. To my adult life, realizing that I can pull from those visions and make them come to this life and this is why I am alive. How does that have anything to do with these two beautiful creatures. Everything. They are doing it, they are living the art life and creating other worlds. So you can imagine, how important it was for me to finally meet them.


Pan’s Labyrinth is the film that brought me to the possibilities of making this life I desire possible. This film had struck so many cords within my own psyche, I could not turn away. I appreciated the brutal reality he kept in this fantasy, not leaving out the disgusting nature of humans. The delicate detail and beauty in every scene. The connection I had with the girl alone in a circumstance in which she had to meet multiple challenges but continued to believe the truths she held so deeply. Over course at the end, I was destroyed and elated that she ended her journey through death into the realm she belonged. From then on, I was hooked to both Guillermo del Toro and Doug Jones. 


One day around 2am whilst almost falling a slumber, I had a feeling I should check Guillermo’s twitter. Strange? Well, I was aware he was doing work for the release of his new film and I wanted to know all about it. Through this, I found out he was announcing he would be doing a Q & A with the cast at the first showing of his new film “The Shape of Water” at the Lincoln Center in New York. Of course, I bought a ticket immediately. I had no idea if I could make it, but it happened and I did.

I was delirious, as is the case in doing anything extra in New York. I wanted to gift himimg_0669 something, so I grabbed my prototype doll I had been workshopping over the past year. It was the “Neptunian,” a being from the planet Neptune where nothing but ether exists. The Neptunian is made from clay, marbles and Grace’s whimsy golden locks adhered to a wooden plaque. I felt it had the closest connection to Guillermo, it was an honor to bestow it upon him.

What can I say about The Shape of Water? Every scene had such rich color tones and dreamlike sequences, of course, I would fall in love with it. The visual poetry in motion that is this film. I don’t know why people have to be so literal and judgemental before giving it a chance. But hey, it won best film of 2018 – so take that!


And again, characters I could emotionally relate to. Elisa’s life without speech, I know sow_trailerb_prores_1080p-mov-00_01_25_05-still00183exactly what that is like and how the world relates to it. The imprisoned sea creature anomaly, being something that no one can relate to or even see. Living in a world that isn’t right. If only one could relate to others by vibration and emotive seeing without judgment. To fall in love with someone for who they are beyond their skins. Over course again, another bravo Mr. Del Toro and Mr. Jones.

After having seen this beautiful film, I was aghast as to how I was going to gift him, my creature. It was a Q & A, so I thought I’d take my chances and make a fool of myself and ask a question and then gift it? eeek. nope. Didn’t happen. What an unbelievable moment it was to just see this film with all the characters delivering such memorable scenes, and then to see every single one of them come through the door right away was magic. At the end of the Q & A, they all came down the aisle I was seated in. As he came forward in slow motion, with fans all around him clamoring for autographs, I said: “Mr. Del Toro, I have a gift for you!” He turned straight towards me directly grabbed it from my hand in slow motion and held it up to his chest, as if hugging it. And said, “oooh for me.. I’ll take it! Gracias!” Then gave me a hug, a cashmere Teddy bear! xo

ooooo and Mr. Doug Jones xoxo


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“Crimson Peak”Crimson-Peak

and so so many more creatures and characters. The unsung talent of the widest variety of creatures. It is just unbelievable how much he completely dissolves into each and every one of his performances with equal natural emotive abilities.

Dark Delicacies in Burbank, one of my favorite shops, img_0670was having a Doug Jones Funko Toy signing! EEEee, I am fairly certain that I rambled on about his characters and how he has inspired me in my journey to SFX creature makeup and character design. He was, of course, patient and obliging. I gave him my very old/new version of the Lady zombie design I created in 2010 and redesigned this year. As a resin cast painted in red, of course in salute to Crimson Peak.  




I choose FAUNO. xxxxxxx

I love their relationship, I can not wait for more.!

How cute is this….





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Emil Melmoth

Today is the last day this exhibit is up for viewing! I had the wonderful opportunity to view this show on opening day. This is one not to miss. 

Time and time again. Last Rites Tattoo Gallery has the best curation of art from the real working artists of our time. Truly there is no other. If you are lucky enough to be in the neighborhood of the Garment District of NYC. STOP WHAT YOU ARE DOING. 

And pay this gallery a visit today. 
They close at 9pm. 

325 W 38th st. , New York, NY 10018
Sept 9th – today . 
This show will come down. 
Of course another exhibit will go up.
Emil Melmoth, I am in awe of you. So humble and talented- truly a brilliant artist. Paul Booth and Casey, thank you for keeping New York worthwhile. 
I have so many things to say but I am of course with no time but my little moments in the day while eating a sandwich. I had to at least post the pictures I took from opening day. There is so much going on the world. I know.- and of course I am probably too depressed most of the time. .. but I want to keep what brings fire and life into my reality – art and art alike. Creation and creativity. This reminds me, why I want to live. To create and wake up for another day. And seeking and interacting with art like this reminds me of the reason why. Whats the point of it all. …… this thing called life.
 I hope you enjoy these and look up this artist and the gallery. Truly, worthy of notice and reverence. The textures and vibrant decay is beyond any ability to absorb its reality in this dimension.


Signing off, 
Embry Blue  


EVA Pomun Numina…the making of

  Why hello. Eva Pomun is an offshoot from my previous work where I had installed a life-size Eva Witch in a Witch/Crystal store window on Sunset Boulevard in the year 2012. I have unfinished business with that Witch so, I decided to reconcile my feelings about losing her and other art pieces to a Witch by creating her in another form. The original Eva had been created in a Secret Hollywood Bunglaow in Autumn of 2012. This Eva here had been created in the comfort of my own home in Brooklyn during the summer of 2017.

Here is my process of this particular creation in picture form…. Towards the end, I make myself into Eva as well.







You can now find her in Hyaena Gallery in Burbank, California.

And you can find me in Hollywood, California.




Get on Board . Why you are involved with Standing Rock. And you don’t even know it!

me-and-jan-svankmejerLet me first mention everything you read here is by my own experience with being Native and information i have learned and gathered on this subject. I feel the need to write about this, so you all can get on board! This involves ALL of US!

A brief background of me –

I am an artist living in New York, living day to day on my values and hard work in the arts as I freelance as a makeup artist and sculptor. I am 33 years old, I come from California of Chumash ancestry from my Mother’s side and Apache from my ‘fathers’ side. I did not grow up with any parents so, I can say I did not learn anything from them. All I know is from my Grandmother and my own efforts of trying to reconnect. There is truly a deep depression that runs in our bloodline and I feel that. But I am going to be the one to change that. By learning, reconnecting and having hope for a better future for our planet and humanity. 

I’m going to write this out, the same way I would have a conversation with you to get the need to know details without knowing anything about Native American/American Indian culture nor about what is currently happening.

This is so important because on DECEMBER 5th, there will be a major situation going down and I want you all to be informed.


International Indigenous Youth Council

Ladonna Brave Bull Allard – Sacred Stone Camp

Dallas Goldtooth – Indigenous Environmental Network

Indigenous People’s Power Project

David Archambault – Tribal Chairman-

“One of the most important things you can do, if you can’t be here. Is to pray. Send your prayers, whatever that looks like to you. You can pitch in. By going to . . These are places that people can go to, to get updated information. .  Follow and share the reality of what is happening and not the propaganda that continues to be perpetuated by the Morton County Sheriff’s department. …” – Kandi Mossett

Why am I so adamant on this event. STANDING ROCK?


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Well, everything that has been happening with Standing Rock  has led me into tears so I know it is changing me and pushing me to do something now. Because hey, no one is going to do it. We have to do it for ourselves.

Now what is Standing Rock?

Is a Native American reservation in North Dakota and South Dakota in the United States. It is now also a word to describe a historic movement in  Indigenous and environmental life on this planet.

What is a Reservation? – A legally designated area for the Native Americans to live on. (officially Prisoner of Wars Camps on government records.)

Standing Rock is the Great Sioux Reservation which according to the  “Treaty of Fort Laramie” 1868 included ALL of South Dakota West of the Missouri River, The Black Hills, The Missouri River, South of the Republican & Platte Rivers and East to Big Horn Mountains. more info here…


in 1877 The US Government discovered gold in the Black Hills and took that away that land without permissions. In 1980 the US Supreme Court’s

MR. JUSTICE BLACKMUN delivered the opinion of the Court.

“This case concerns the Black Hills of South Dakota, the Great Sioux Reservation, and a colorful, and in many respects tragic, chapter in the history of the Nation’s West. Although the litigation comes down to a claim of interest since 1877 on an award of over $17 million, it is necessary, in order to understand the controversy, to review at some length the chronology of the case and its factual setting.”

( case of a hit and run on Pine ridge reservation which brings in use the Treaty of Fort Laramie. )

What is a Treaty?

is any legally binding agreement between nations. Major contracts between states, armies, governments, and tribal groups.

Think of your apartment. The Government is your landlord and your lease is the treaty. Your lease says you have rights to be inside that one apartment. One day the landlord comes and takes away your bathroom, and then your kitchen, and then tells you to move farther away and in a much smaller apartment. This is what has happened to the first people on this continent. They kept getting moved, and pushed and rounded up into what now is a reservation.

Of course this is a simple analogy. Since Natives did not believe in owning property to begin with. You can not own your mother. Why would you own the land you are standing on? The water you drink, or the air you breath? The Native nations signed, because they had no choice – it was the only way to protect the land.

Why is the Treaty of Fort Laramie such a big deal right now?

If the Sioux Nation can get their original treaty re-instated by the Government. The land the Army Corps has control over would no longer be in their hands. Hence NO PIPELINE.

Why don’t the Sioux have the legal right to stop DAPL?

As mentioned above in the Treaty debacle, they no longer have rights to the particular area in which they are digging. Although, the Sioux have Sacred burial grounds in area in which DAPL are digging and doing construction. The Sioux have been on that land for the past 300,000 years. Ladonna Brave Bull Allard started the Sacred Stone Camp. Her son is buried where they dug up the land earlier this year in April. She had to do something.

Why does this concern you?

If you don’t stand up for this, the Government is basically able to sell you and your rights! As is shown with current affairs that have occurred within this past year alone.

If this pipeline goes through ALL – 17 million people who live downstream of the MISSOURI river will face contaminated water such has occurred in FLINT Michigan. Which includes; MISSOURI, NORTH DAKOTA, SOUTH DAKOTA, NEBRASKA, IOWA, MONTANA AND KANSAS, not to mention everyone downstream of the MISSISSIPPI river.

We are all made of water, without water we will not survive. The movement is to take a stand against corruption and stop the contamination of our planet for us and future generations.

Why hasn’t the local news channels mentioned this?

If you knew about this, it would not be in their best interest. (corporations)

What can you do?

You do what you can, with what you know, from where your are.

• Get the word out

• Donate

Clothing – Local drop off of Winter Clothing in Greenpoint Brooklyn

• Make Art/Music

• Be Aware/ Be Awake

• Join the DIVEST movement. Take your money out of big banks. #BANKEXIT  (Big banks are investing your money into projects like these. This particular pipeline is backed by All major banks; JP Chase Morgan, Bank of America, Wells Fargo, CitiBank, etc. ) Join a Federal Credit Union that suits your needs.

The company behind this project is

Energy Transfer Partners. The project is The Dakota Access Pipeline.

Sign this petition…


Blessings for All * On this day of Mourning……Thanksgiving


There is something huge happening right now! Help protect our water.

Please take the time to consider donating to any one of these confirmed links.

Your support will help the nation of Indigenous peoples of America to continue to fight for OUR water. For the future of your children and for us now, this is the time to come together and open your eyes and see that APATHY is not the way to a better future. We have to take control of our lives and not accept the way things are. We know in our hearts, that things are not right. Even more so than ever, this is our generations fight.

In case you have missed any of the news feeds on Social Media.          #NODAPL #WATERISLIFE #ISTANDWITHSTANDINGROCK #OCETISAKOWIN

FOLLOW “Dallas Goldtooth” on facebook for up to the minute updates.

As there is barely any news coverage on this topic at all! Standing Rock has been a topic of discussion for the last few months. ….(Video from Sep.9th 2016)….

Resilience and strength, thank you to all of the nations that are standing up for us now.

The big oil pipeline companies have come to North Dakota to drill a pipeline into the land of the sacred, through the entire country. They originally were supposed to go from Bismark North Dakota, but had to change that because the community of white people refused and said it was too great a risk. Then the company decided to change plans and put that pipeline on Indian Land instead. Proclaiming that they indeed consulted the council, in which they did not. And have gone through with their plans on constructing it. The ripped through sacred lands (nothing new – all over this country that has always happened). The youth created the movement to peacefully stop this from going through now. This past week has shown violence inflicted from the Morton County Sheriffs office onto peaceful water protectors. This is so unbearable to see and believe that this can happen again in our supposed evolved society.

David Archambault is the Chair of Standing Rock Sioux Tribal Government 

Unarmed Water Protector – Sophia Wilansky – (21 yrs old from NYC) Facing possible amputation of arm. Update from her progress….

Sophia was safely taken out of North Dakota for emergent surgery and is currently in stable condition. Below is her statement as conveyed by her father, lawyer Wayne Wilansky. “At around 4:30am after the police hit the bridge with water cannons and rubber bullets and pepper spray they lobbed a number of concussion grenades which are not supposed to be thrown at people directly at protesters or protectors as they want to be called. A grenade exploded right as it hit Sophia in the left forearm taking most of the undersurface of her left arm with it. Both her radial and ulnar artery were completely destroyed. Her radius was shattered and a large piece of it is missing. Her medial nerve is missing a large section as well. All of the muscle and soft tissue between her elbow and wrist were blown away. The police did not do this by accident – it was an intentional act of throwing it directly at her. Additionally police were shooting people in face and groin intending to do the most possible damage. Sophia will have surgery again tomorrow as bit by bit they try to rebuild a somewhat functioning arm and hand. The first surgery took a vein from her leg which they have implanted in her arm to take the place of the missing arteries. She will need multiple surgeries to try to gain some functional use of the arm and hand. She will be, every day for the foreseeable future, fearful of losing her arm and hand. There are no words to describe the pain of watching my daughter cry and say she was sorry for the pain she caused me and my wife. I died a thousand deaths today and will continue to do so for quite some time. I am left without the right words to describe the anguish of watching her look at her now alien arm and hand.” – statement from her father Wayne Wilansky

Sophia Wilansky’s Gofundme

Unarmed Water Protector Vanessa Sioux Z

Vanessa has been on the front lines fighting DAPL and working security for Oceti Sakowin since September 11. During the action on November 20 at the Backwater bridge, she was shot in the eye with a tear gas canister  6 feet away.  It was aimed directly at her face by a Morton County officer. She was seen at Bismark Sanford hospital and released because she had no insurance.  She has a detached retina and needs surgery to ensure her vision. She is now seeking medical attention in Fargo. Donations will be used for the cost of the 2 ER visits, surgery, medications, and recovery.” – description of incident

Vanessa’s Gofundme

The true colors of our country are shining through more than ever. The new beings and enlightened ones on this planet now, please join me and this campaign to save our planet and our future.


What can we do?

As Teal Swan would say

“You do what you do, from where you are, with what you have and know. That’s what you do!”

this message has resonated with me tremendously, from Teal Swan speaking on our new president elect. ..


History is horrific, humanity has caused great pain and suffering towards it’s brothers and sisters. I am certain that some of us have evolved to realize that the way the system is, is not the way it should be. It is unsustainable. It is gearing towards a calamity of no return. We know that, and we know that APATHY will not stop it.

Here’s a new documentary on where the planet is heading, with Leonardo DiCaprio as our host.


We know to trust the status quo and continue on the path of greed and materialism is foolish. It is laughably apparent with what just happened in our country.

The time is now, tomorrow is not 100%. I am not preaching, I am only a small voice knowing that I can not contain myself anymore to follow this societal life path. We all know that, who are we kidding. We believe that we will lose our homes and food and money and jobs if we step out of them. Maybe we will, but the truth is (in my belief) it’s going to happen anyway. Better to choose to make a change and empower ourselves. Educate your children and yourselves.

aweeds01As I have learned to open my heart from bitterness, thank you my Breeze for giving me love and lifting the stones off my heart.

My life path has shown me great struggle and survival skills. Coming from a place with no parents and only the support of my Grandmother when she was able to be there. I have learned in life to keep to my books and art.  For the world on the outside was complete nonsense and I chose to avoid any interactions with it at all possible cases. I did not believe in what everyone was doing nor how they treated each other. I went completely into myself and kept on going until I found myself here in New York where I have been for the last 10 years. Without the pain and suffering I would not have achieved and learned the things I know now.

So, on that note. I will write from my heart.


I am grateful to the great many that are now opening their eyes and hearts to what is happening right now in Standing Rock. I absolutely believe in this generation coming in to be here for the great time of change and to assist us in bringing in the new age. I know, some of you may think this sounds completely crazy. But again, I am writing from my heart and my own personal intuition. Everything I believe resonates with my understanding of what is happening right now. Things have gone one this way quietly for a very, very long time. Now it has intensified. Now is the time for change.

On my annual Anti-thanksgiving post here, I write for all of the people who may or may not know me. This is what I would say to you, to give your some insight on this American tradition that is basically blasphemy to any Native.

To those who are from America, everything you were taught in your school books is wrong. Please do your research. There is nothing worse than someone who is certain of something with no actual background or knowledge of it. This is no holiday to celebrate. This is a day in which the Indigenous of this nation shared food with you and welcomed you into our homes. Then they proceeded to systematically wipe out the entire countries population of Natives. Otherwise known as Genocide. This is why today is a day of mourning. This is why I cringe when people tell me to have a Happy Thanksgiving. It’s like saying ‘Happy Holocaust.’ This is when, I quietly swallow my teeth and die a little inside. I mean, I can’t be rude and real or can I?

To those of you who are NEW immigrants to this country and were not born here. I welcome you, everything you learn from passing your citizenship is a lie. There is usually no mention of what this country was actually made from. They skip that part and go straight to Freedom from Britain! Yay, new rules new country yay! Welcome to land of the free! The real details on the how this America was built is hard to find and is actually skewed in such a wrong direction it is horrific. Hollywood doesn’t help. at all!

To make peace with the land, please acknowledge the Natives. They are not ghosts, they are not gone. They are here, and somehow have less rights than you do! Reservations are not a fun place to visit or gawk they are sacred. They are deemed by the government (still on record by the way) as Prisoner of War Camps. Yes, like the internment camps/concentration camps. yes all of that shit. Given land that the white people did not want or saw no resources in .




Here is a movie to start you on..



[In the 1880s, after the U. S. Army’s defeat at the Battle of the Little Bighorn, the government continues to push Sioux Indians off their land. In Washington, D.C., Senator Henry Dawes (Aidan Quinn) introduces legislation to protect Native Americans rights. In South Dakota, schoolteacher Elaine Goodale (Anna Paquin) joins Sioux native and Western-educated Dr. Charles Eastman in working with tribe members. Meanwhile, Lakota Chief Sitting Bull refuses to give into mounting government pressures.] follow the link below to watch….

Let’s start with withdrawing your money from the big banks.


please follow my next post I will provide all the links and resources to start doing this with us.


Blessed be,


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Wax Angel Candle Sculpture How to


The idea for this project was initiated by Shien Lee to create the effect of a woman covered in candle dripping from shoulders, chest to stomach. With live candles burning on the shoulders. I had previously created something similar a few months back using shoulders pads and a wooden board for a back piece. But this particular job, it required no shoulder pads and candles as close as possible to the body.

So, how to create a completed wax dripping body image with no time for actual dripping? Pre-dripping can not be done, because wax will break. I did some research, and found the hot glue technique! Looooooove this method. I am completely inspired to do more and more wax dripping. Wink wink hot glue.

To create a supportive base, I used cotton rope and a large D ring. The shoulder, still needed a supportive base – I cut up a half moon of styrofoam, inserted rope into and dug out holes for candle security.





Next, it was time for the dripping. For this I found a flat glass base (which happened to be a scale. hehe.) Use the glass base with slick in olive oil beforehand, and lay down glue dripping one by one. This is time consuming, but well worth it. I usually listen to a podcast or meditate on what the next procedure is going to be.

Time to lay down the glue piece on a curved cylinder to create shoulder movement. (Glass Jars)

Next, I glued down the glue flaps onto the cotton rope pieces. From this , I like to take a step back and envision how it will wear on the model. What the movement might be, and what are the fire safety concerns. Basically every piece needs to be covered in candle wax to be safe.


Because I am obsessed with Sugarpill’s “Ice Angel” eyeshadow I brush that overIMG_8420 the candle wax to create a blue luminesence. Of course, knowing that this visual art piece will be in a club atmosphere there is a high chance these details will not even be seen. But I cannot help myself, and did it anyway.

What ideas do you have for this? I have so many. I only hope for the time and venue to create more pieces like this. Perhaps on a grander scale, in a multiple colors? Who knows, anything can happen.

On our merry way with Johnny Madison with fog machine and candle art piece in tow trampling through the cemetery roads of our home facade…..into the chaos of midtown then into a jaw dropping venue  called the Diamond Horseshoe. It was so important to have Johnny Backstageon hand for this project. Johnny was in charge of the fog and checking the wax temperature settings during the event. Then passing me the cup of wax from under the table, so I could pour it on my lovely model Christine. What an adventure!

Backstage I met my model and candle wax playmate Christine Everett. It’s showtime! ….IMG_8504Jane Kratochavil

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Signing off,

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Blue Loves Grandma Petra



The Importance of Grandma Petra. (Petra translatation=Hard Rock)


Her love transcends. Caring for all that are near and dear is her number one duty. On call, on hand for all. How many cakes has she created? There is no joy in her life like making a cake for a celebration and creating a party. She has enormous love and graceful skills in large gatherings.


I can only speak of my own life experience with her. She has been the guiding light in my childhood. It is safe to say without her & my grandfather -my brother and I would have been lost in the system. I don’t know how many other children she has raised. But my brother and I are definatley on that list. With her care and life lessons I have learned to also be resilent, honest, and hardworking. In most of what I tread in life, I think of her. Am I doing all that I can? Am I being lazy? “In her words, there is no such thing as being bored! Let me show you, what you can do….”

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Maybe this is going too deep and too new agey. But this is my safe space for words. But in my intuition and meditation, I feel like she has been in my previous lives. Perhaps in the last one we worked in an Abbey together. She has serious inclinations towards Nun habits. Dedication to serving others, minimalism and hard work. Delicate embrace and understanding of others. And she is just so darn cute and caring.


My heart is healing since I was last able to see her. Finding out she was in the hospital, was shocking. But it shouldn’t be, right? For anyone who is 79 years old, you would expect as much. But for her it was. Well, because I have never seen her lying in bed. I do not recall her ever being in the hospital! And she is my mother in a way. I am so happy that I could spend her 80th birthday with her. She had just woken up 1 day before. Previous to that she was on life support. The physical therapist that was moving her body, asked her if she wanted one thing for her birthday what would it be. She replied, “To make sure everyone is happy.”

IMG_8660I had to jump on a plane and try to get by her side while this was happening. I would not be able to move on with my life, if I did not try and be there. Well, because I can’t really afford to make a trip I had to come up with a way to help fund my travel. And that is where the gofund me campaign came in.
















Grandma Petra has been a big supporter of my artwork. Since I was little drawing on everything, building things with her and learning to cook with her.

IMG_8584For her birthday in n 2013, I gifted her an American Indian Artpiece. There is nothing she loves more than spending time with family and sharing food.

Grandma Petra

Native Peace
Native Peace

This campaign is a way for people to commission me to make dolls. I have succeeded in traveling down there. With that money and my aunt giving the family a space to crash I was able to stay a few days. Everyday that I saw her she was getting better and better. The life support came off, she began recovering. In about a week she recovered as much to be moved to a rehabiliton recovery center. Which I think was really fast for what her body was going through. Now we take everyday into the next.

Thank you to everyone for all of your love and support. New Dollies coming up! If anyone would like me to make some for you, can can still select the options on the campaign.


(Artwork will be available by September)




In closing I will say that I am so happy that I could be there for her recovery. She is still in need of a long rehabilitation, but we are no longer in the grey area. What would you do for someone that made a significant difference in your life? What wouldn’t you do?

Just for the heck of it and the love of my Grandma, here is an embarrassing picture of me with my brother Mark.



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Now that summer is here. How about let’s not….CULTURAL APPROPRIATION…

Morgan Mae 90 yr old Navajo Weaver
Morgan Mae 90 yr old Navajo Weaver
Summer Vibe Tribe Collection
Summer Vibe Tribe Collection

Hello dearest ones. This evening, I would like to share my view on what is happening in my world at the moment. I am dealing with cultural appropriation, smack in the face! Some of you, may or may not know I have a day job- which is working at a very global and popular makeup brand. In which I believed in for it’s founding father’s ethics. Artistry for artists and sharing that with the public, and it’s many socially aware programs. But those days seem to be long and lost. For this year I could not believe what has happened!  At this time this makeup brand has launched a ridiculous collection called “Vibe Tribe.” Ahem, excuse me? They should stick to silly collections, like Haute Dog and Washing Machines… Hey!

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Wait a second, you can not take a Navajo Pattern, put it on all of your packaging. Name the collection TRIBE! Name your products ….”Arrowhead?, Wild Horses?!, Adobe Brick?!.” and then go on to defend themselves by saying it’s inspired by colors of the fucking desert and music festivals! That this collection has NOTHNG to do with Native Americans! Please don’t insult our intelligence. Are you crazy!? I am literally going insane looking at this stupid collection everyday, without being able to talk about how wrong it is.


Except here,

Allura Beauty has hit the nail on the head about this collection in further detail…in this video below.

This topic opens up discussions we should be having with each other about taking from other cultures without knowing what any of it means or where it came from.  Shall we ask ourselves … is having a cultural identity important?

Do we link ourselves to our ancestors? Do we as Americans know how?

Our closest connections to our heritage are with the elders in our families. They are our teachers and lineage. Do we pay attention to them, can we?

Knowing your elders, enables oneself to connect, to be rooted, to be ‘of’ somewhere. What if, you had no roots? You had no knowledge of where you came from, there was no communication from your family what traditions were stolen, hidden, erased……. or gone? We all have stories of loss and being despondent with our families for many reasons. Can we be sensitive with each other and not be so mean and disrespectful?

How can we find our future selves without a connection? These are the questions, I ask myself.

I cannot speak for others, but only of my story. One of traveling this life alone, with no guidance, support or family to learn from or lean on. I do a million times over thank my elders for being there for me and siblings as we would not have had a stable ground to stand on. Now, that I am older I can reflect on this and I understand why it was that way and I have no anger or resentment towards my family. I can only sympathize and understand what happened and why it happened. I can now offer my support to them, and I do so with my loving partner who has given me more strength to be patient.

Loving and learning about my family has opened up doorways into my heart that were long lost and closed. Those connections have become important to me in identifying myself and moving forward. The heritage that my family had, was shut off and suppressed through the generations of christian schooling and re-programming.

Mission with padres spanish soldiers and Native Americans

These stories are buried with my Great Grandmother Josephine with her long flowy silver hair (Chumash), she spoke of that time in the Mission Orphanages in Los Angeles as strict and terrifying. My Grandmother Petra lived in the era of great racism and depression. She had learned to assimilate into the white society that Los Angeles had become.(Los Angeles used to be covered in Orange Orchards!) She raised her kids with in the new America. Then came my mother-  there is my lineage. In somewhat of a short and fast history that I don’t want to completely make public knowledge. I feel a responsibility to hold a torch and show support to the American Indian Community.

And I guess, that is why I feel a desire to write about these topics. Well, quite honestly as many of you know….well… I am not much of a talker. I am rather a thinker/dreamer/observer. I will always allow others to express themselves. I do choose to share these topics with people that I feel would actually listen, otherwise I don’t waste my energy.

I don’t blame people for not being aware, but I do blame people for being blatantly strong in their opinions without the facts! Here is Marlon Brando speaking generally about the American Public being completely unaware of who Native Americans are….

I cannot summarize my story so briefly as to how I have come to these conclusions. But I can only share what is in my heart and what is of my understanding. To be good to others and support and fight for what is right. Simple facts I cannot ignore.

Cultural Appropriation. …Firstly, what is this? And how does it affect your everyday life? – How can one person, such as yourself make supportive decisions?

I am aware of course that this world is a shit show so to speak, and there are severe atrocities happening constantly. What can we do? I am with you, they hurt and we are of only one human life capacity. Or, are we? Yes, we are of one. But every’one’ touches another and another and another. Small enlightenments create larger enlightenments.

Where, am I going with this?

To be put simply. Balancing life and what the heck my tiny voice your voice/actions can do. Well, I only hope to spread awareness. And to help those who care, to not look so unaware and silly for taking part of Cultural Appropriation by buying this stuff with NO meaning.

Just Say No to Ambrosio copyThe point is CULTURAL APPROPRIATION is a term to describe an entity that completely takes another cultures identity and uses it as a means to profit. Without permission or giving due credit to where the hell the “INSPIRATION,” came from! MAdness! Any simple acknowledgement to at least educate the public, what the hell they are supporting, wearing – unknowingly promoting  without fully getting it!

Okay, can you follow me on an identifiable point..

misfitsjacketFor example, there are subcultures that we can identify ourselves within music, community and other things. Then we in turn, support these bands, communities and groups/and or ideas. By wearing a certain style, badge, button, patch because we are in line with the idea it represents. In using this analogy we can come to understand what it means to wear something from another culture. Do you ‘know’ what you are wearing? You do this everyday, whether you like it or not.

michaelkkorsIn this culturaly blind society, we see people wearing cultural identities without being the wiser. Because, consumers in turn believe they are being in trend! Some may use what they wear as a status symbol, yes yes you are in the Michael Kors club congratulations here is your cookie. Ohh, that’s a cute medicine bag – let me just see how much they are selling it at Urban fucking Outfitters!

Okay, I think it is totally fine to think something is cute and want to get it. But if you like something from another culture, Please for the love of the creator! Go on google and search for a REAL American Indian who made it! You can buy and support REAL NATIVE products from REAL living NATIVES! American Indians are NOT DEAD. They are alive, they have communities and are trying to carry on traditions or reawaken what was lost/stolen/forgotten/buried. They make things! Instead of supporting the fucking 1% corporate greed machine, support real people, support real Natives……hey you! In those mocassins! Buy them from Natives! Not the local DSW, Macy’s, Rag & Bone! grrrr.


Pictures I took just walking through Macys. Ralph Lauren Ponchos. …


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if you are more inclined to do some research on Cultural Appropriation, please check out the link below. They go into this topic in greater detail.

Virgil Ortiz

Virgil_Ortiz_DenverArtMuseum_1w-copyHow incredible is the new and modern work of Virgil Ortiz! Ortiz makes traditional Cochiti figurative pottery, experimental figurative pottery, traditional pottery vessels, and designer clothing. Wow, yes and yes. Coming from a Cochiti pottery heritage he uses these traditions and fuses this artwork into a new storyline for our time now and beyond.

madeinnativeamericaHe has also started a foundation called “Made in Native America.” Which enables his tribe and community to work from this label and support their community. Natives making Native Art, Fashion, and Textiles for all.

The Pueblo Revolt New Mexico

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Thank you, for taking the time to read my thoughts.

P.S. for the love of the Creator

Please stop saying you are 1/4 Cherokee, when striking up a conversation about American Indians just listen. You don’t need to show your badge. It IS a THING! 80% of people I have  talked to about American Indians has immediately talked about their great grandmother being a full blood cherokee. Why only Cherokee? Why not ANY other tribe? and there are so many other dumb things people say..

I am not talking about my friends, if you want to be my friend please don’t irritate me with this stuff….

Good Night,

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DeMystifying the Native Americans

Demystifyin Natives


Why hello, it’s that time of year once again. A time where we say happy thanksgiving to each other and tell each other how thankful we are. … Can we do that on a regular basis and not just on this one day. Are we not thankful every day for what we have, who we love and what blessings we have experienced?

This holiday is so embarrassing.

If this feast was the only thing the American government could come up with to bring some kind of cheerful note to the starting of the nation with the Indian situation, well.. it makes sense. The rest of the history of the Native relations and the American Governments are horrible! Can we say crusaders? Can we say the Inquistion?! Geez – humans

“If Aliens visit us, the outcome would be much as when Columbus landed in America, which didn’t turn out well for the Native Americans…”

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Happy Thankstaking! As this is what it really means.

National Day of Mourning Stone

This stone is at Plymouth Rock, as a reminder of the mass atrocities that have fallen on the Native peoples of Turtle Island before this was re-claimed as “The United States of America.”

“Our nation was born in genocide when it embraced the doctrine that the original American, the Indian, was an inferior race. Even before there were large numbers of Negroes on our shore, the scar of racial hatred had already disfigured colonial society. From the sixteenth century forward, blood flowed in battles over racial supremacy. We are perhaps the only nation which tried as a matter of national policy to wipe out its indigenous population. Moreover, we elevated that tragic experience into a noble crusade. Indeed, even today we have not permitted ourselves to reject or feel remorse for this shameful episode. Our literature, our films, our drama, our folklore all exalt it. Our children are still taught to respect the violence which reduced a red-skinned people of an earlier culture into a few fragmented groups herded into impoverished reservations.” – Martin Luther King Jr.


The reason behind “Demystifying Native Americans,” is that as a Native person growing up in this modern world ruled by the European classes. I have always felt that as a society, people just don’t know anything about Native Americans. That it seems to just be grouped into the “Oh, they don’t really exist anymore.” Such as Dragons and Unicorns. They are revered for their mystery and style, but not for what they really are. Everyone wants to be one as a child and or for Halloween. But hey! Being a Native American is not a Costume!!! How would it look if you dressed as any other race? It’s almost as America has a deaf ear when it comes down to Native American education. Learning the reality would make you feel –somewhat less American…where’s that American pride..?

on a lighter note:

1491s are sooo funny. Natives doing comedy…

And no, Native Americans are not rich because they have casinos! Argh, I can go on and on about that. But that is for another day.

And from the Daily Show earlier this year…

The point is, please people educated yourselves before forming solid opinions. Just like anything, have an open mind and be willing to see all sides of a story before eating the beliefs people feed you. (ie..your elmentary school! )

Here’s a brief and funny take on that by MTV shot this year.

I mean, what would they actually teach you in school?

….”Well you see, life is conquer all and everything possible, then spread your beliefs! This is the story of our great country and it’s forefathers…

“If it be the design of Providence to exterminate these savages in order to make room for cultivators of earth. It seems not possible that rums may be the appointed means.” – Benjamin Franklin

and so on..

“The immediate objectives are the total destruction and devastation of their settlements and the capture of as many prisoners of every age and sex as possible. It will be essential to ruin their crops in the ground and prevent their planting more.”  –        George Washington

On a closing notation.

Can we all just be kind and listen and hold your opinions and tongues. I hope to one day see an end to the ugly side of humanity. Until then I will be in my artworld.

Signing off,

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The Kindly Ones 

July 11th 2015   Buck Moon 

“Shadow of My Name” Menton3

Profound and the utter most brilliant channeled artwork I have ever seen was “The Kindly Ones” exhibit, this past weekend at Last Rites Tattoo Gallery. There are really no words to describe this pairing of artwork by this incredible collective of artists – known as ‘David Stoupakis & Menton3.’ I can’t pick one favorite or even two or three. I think each person will come up with their own feelings and interpretations. Describing what you see in paintings is like trying to explain your dreams. Really will anyone truly understand what it is you are trying to translate from a foggy mystical visual space where thoughts change the scene, into the earthly language we come to understand? I don’t think so.  

“Mother” David Stoupakis 2015

“Fortune Teller” David Stoupakis 2015

 David’s paintings hold a sincere and delicate beauty that bath in sheer veils of everlasting dark pearlescence. Textures pop into hands, begging for a lasting touch. “Fortune Teller,” takes my breath away. Am I looking into the other realm here? I will gladly accept and step into this world.


“After the Storm” David Stoupakis

Stand & wait for the cold static air to brush you into the waves of quiet chaos. Wishful levitation keeps you traveling deeper and deeper into the blissful grey. 

“Valhalla” David Stoupakis 2015

Furies hold penetrating contempt in nothing but serenity.  Look into her eyes. Translucent red veils. Phosphorescent red flame. Vibrating passionate “Valhalla.”

“From Blood to Ash” David Stoupakis 2015
“Depths of Shallow Water” David Stoupakis 2015


“A Justification” Menton3 2015
All of the most secret and sacred moments in adventure, journey and discovery brings these images to the threshold. Outside of the everyday rigorous world there in lies a world of truth and beauty. From the moment I viewed Menton3’s paintings I was hooked. 
“An Evocation” Menton3 2015

So of course I would come to the opening of “The Kindly Ones,” featuring two of my absolute favorite artists of our time in my opinion. In Menton3’s Fury paintings I see more of the in between feminine creatures. The presence of these figures reminds me of deities visitations through the dream realm. Ephermeal Pulsating with a common thread of justice.

“What Have You Done” Menton3 2015
“An Age of Man” Menton3 2015


“Brimstone of an Ash Nymphe” Menton3 2015
“Tisiphone” Menton3 2015
“Gaia” Menton3 2015
“Flood of Rubies” Menton3 2015


This exhibit is still on display, if you live in New York. Please take time to go see this in person. in New York and did not see this gallery exhibit at Last Rites, then you are crazy. 


Thanksgiving / Thanks taking. What are we really celebrating?

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Ok. Here we again on this festive day, every year this occurs. Every year families gather to enjoy each other’s company. I really enjoy the fact that people make a point to get together, I just wish it wasn’t on the day of “Thanksgiving.” The word in itself meant to be so thankful to the Lord for having achieved victory over the Heathen Savages (Natives) and having completely eradicated them from the land. I think there needs to be a time in our country where we all take the real history seriously and get over being a Super American refusing to believe the pioneers of this country did great wrong and lead this nation in believing lies & myths. There needs to be a real honoring of the ancestors of this land. A little acknowledgement would go a long way in the healing of the great wounds.

Here is a video by the late Russel Means a Native American Activist who led the American Indian Movement’s  “Wounded Knee Standoff “ in South Dakota at the Pine Ridge Reservation, in order to reopen negotiations with the Government on broken treaties ( More info here: )… in which Marlon Brando refused to pick up his Oscar Award, and had Native Sacheen Littlefeather to pick it up for him to draw attention to this stand-off.

Here is Russell Means take on this holiday… Thanks taking video

This day is a day of mourning for Native Americans to remember their ancestors who were massacred. On this day “Squanto” and his tribe enjoyed food with the Pilgrims after he had taught them how to grow food and survive. But before this, as a child ‘Squanto’ was sold as a slave to Spain. ( Native Americans were taken from this country and sold as slaves.) He made his way to England and later learned their language in order for him to find his way back home at Cape Cod. He arrived to his Village to find that his whole family and tribe had vanished from disease and were killed.

Now, this is when the pilgrims arrived and the story began. After this day of sharing food, the Indians where systematically killed. And the word THANKSGIVING was used to symbolism the Pilgrims thankfulness for having killed the heathen savages. And the pilgrims would celebrate their victories by sharing food and thanking the lord. They used this day so much, George Washington decided there should only be one day they should celebrate this day. And eventually Abraham Lincoln declared it a National Holiday that we celebrate today.

I know that we are brought up around this tradition with little thought of what it actually means. As a child you just associate this holiday to gatherings with your family and enjoying wonderful food that was cooked by your Grandma and your Mom. It was a nice calm time to spend with the family.

We are not taught the truth, it is up to us to learn and grow from what is out there. What resonates with you, where you take that and what it means. To me, it is quite meaningful I can not celebrate this holiday. I am Chumash and Apache and I want to honor my ancestry not ignore it. The time is now, my family has felt shame from it and I can not speak for them. But I speak for myself as Native living in this crazy yet exciting time in the world. I have hope that their will be an enlightenment in my lifetime. This day is just to sad, and I consider it a day of Mourning. I’ve have decided to take an incredibly out there work shift from 8pm – 6 am. I write this post, and I send love and peace to the Natives forgotten.

Plymouth Rock mourning Stone.National Day of Mourning Stone

More on Thanksgiving by Native Americans of today.

What does it matter to be dead or alive?

Joel-Peter Witkin


Where do I come from? How did I get here? I am at present time working in New York City as a makeup artist for MAC cosmetics at the #1 MAC in the world, I am also balancing my artistic pursuits in creating one of a kind art dolls for the desecerning client. I am blessed to have the life I have now and I am working on building that life. Everything I have done, everything I have accomplished I did it with my own ambition and passion. On my own, absolutely no family help or encouragement.

My journey has been long and great. I’m 31 years old I do not feel my age, for one because at this age in society, it is defined as having a family and career yada yada. I’m redefining that idea into – I am 31 rings old! Meaning I have 31 years of rings on my body like a tree. What is age anyway but a meter on experience, with every year more is learned. I actually have this strong memory of when I was around 8 rings old, and I would stare up into the sky in the back of a car that I was traveling in Los Angeles and think to myself what is the meaning of life. Why do people do anything? What does it matter if we are dead or alive?. And then I thought to myself, well I am ready to die so I will know what the meaning behind all of this is. There must be a reason, a purpose? Well, I remember feeling and knowing in my gut that when we die we will instinctively know the why and hows of it all!. That we will not need to ask anyone but we will in fact just KNOW. Because we already knew, but forgot when we started life on this planet. There I was –  as a gloomy little mute child. Never spoke a word to anyone until I was well into high school. Children thought I didn’t know english, and I would just ignore them.

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Imogen Heap in “My Secret Friend” IAMX

In a way I believe I have always felt old. I choose to strongly observe the worlds around me, rather than be a part of them. I did not see a reason to participate. I thought everything was ridiculous and people did not make any sense, people are cruel, crazy and unkind. Through my years as an artist journeying through self discovery and getting past negative childhood memories and attachments. We all have these in one form or another, no matter what we are born into it is up to us to grow from it and not let it define who you are! You make who you are. You make your own choices, you choose your own path. Letting go of these negative clouds is soo important. I’ve seen these clouds consume and define lives and it is just not right! There is so much potential. It really breaks my heart.

We all come from somewhere, we all meet one another and inspire one another. Altough we don’t see it at the time, each one of us has an incredible effect on each other. If this one person hadn’t exposed me to this, taught me this, shown me this, experienced this with me, opened my perspectives we would not be here now. Our interests would have become stale, uninspired. This is one reason I absolutely advocate people to change their routines, move somewhere experience something new. I absolutely can not stand strong small minded opinions with no background. Dear this is what most people in small towns are like, I guess this is why I’ve always stayed in cities. What am I getting at?

webcam-toy-photo69I’ve decided to make this blog a real thing, and share some intimate details on my mind and what ideals and beliefs make the kind of artwork I make. I know a lot of people ask me why so creepy? Well, why not – and I believe most people are too rigid in their minds and when confronted with something that isn’t comfortable that they don’t understand. I don’t intend for my work to be creepy, dark and weird. It just happens. My life has touched me in a way where I can not make art that is pleasant. My work is real, every stitch, stroke, shape is from a real place. There is life in my hands, and in my work. I believe this world is so much more manageable when you open your mind to all the realities we are living in, and to open that window/ doorway. In the embedded matrix of time and space, we are meant to transform and change through every moment from one into another and another and another. Just as fractals do in nature and the sacred art of the world.
Signing off –


Embry Blue

an introspective Sunday.

Sketching Sundays Aug 3

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Warm up sketching to Virgine Ropars.

Why am I so impatient with the art process! I am trying to catch up with what I want it to look like instead of focusing on now and how to make it more perfect. Drawing two steps ahead, grrr.. I am stunned at how 100% of Virgine Ropars creations are 100% real in texture, membranes and hair follicles! How how how! Wow. Sketching her doll now to warm up for my latest creation. I have blue cat eyes, which completely transformed the original sculpt into let’s say something in more salacious forest like proportions..Well let’s see how this comes out. I’ll post about it when it’s done?

Ropar Close Up Sketch Aug 3

embry blue sketch to Virgine Ropars

Summer 2014 New York & Salem

July 13, 2014

Full Moon In Capricorn

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I have never accepted Summer. Now I think I have to as we are all stuck in the mouth of the New York Dragon. Waiting in the subway station is comparable to waiting inside of a Volcano while you sweat your weeks supply of water out. Facing a hundred strangers wondering through underground passages while barely being awake because your are a Vampire. City life in the Summer is not for me… It hasn’t all been bad. MMmm.. Blue Subway June photoThe Summer Solistice welcomed a well earned Mac Makeup Certification, in which I was knighted by the beautiful Amy Ernest! Followed by an incredible metal show – the one and only  Messugah! Messugah has a very special place in my life, so seeing them on that great day was just meant to be. Gaaaaaa…. the incredible power and force behind that music is unparalleled. My face and head throbbed and pulsated with sound and light. Chest pounded and face melted – check.

Summer this year is all about Art, Beauty, the Sea Goddess, Seaweed, Iced Coffee, short adventures, Life reflections, Making People Pretty and new plans.

In June my partner and I ventured to Salem Massachusetts. Bewitched Samantha StatueTraveling out of the city for a short vacation is a necessity to lessen the risk of shooting your face off to end the Summer misery. There is a Samantha (Bewitched) Bronze Statue in the Town square, how cute is that?  Lots of  witchy shops and normal people, yet again we are the weirdos. :/ Quaint and small Village atmosphere. The New England area feels incredibly  Old American/Colonial. Strange Thing?  .. Walking through the old tombstones and shrines for the victims of The Witch Trials is a steady reminder of the human condition in group mentalities and hysteria. Ohh you humans. One day we might get along. . or not. Without trees, fresh air, water how do we live? City life is certainly putting a strain on my spirit. This is the toughest city for me to focus and make my creations, but again I will endeavor and pull my little beings out. New cool affordable art coming up for sale! Stay tuned.Blue Taxi

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Oderus Urungus the Myth

 “Oderus Urungus the Myth”

I sculpted this piece for a very special memorial art show run by Martina & Frank Russo of MF Gallery in Brooklyn, New York. They were really close friends with him and had put together and amazing show of work in memory of Dave Brockie. Dave Brockie was one of the founding members of the shock rock band GWAR. He passed away this March. The band put together an Art Foundation for those in need of assistance to pursue their artistic dreams. They have a video about it here. Part of the proceeds from this art show will go to that fund. This was one of the coolest art shows I have been a part of, I am so honored to have had a piece in it. There is a lot of coverage of this event, to see pictures and art visit this.  My Oderus piece was made from Super Sculpey clay, wood, resin, and oils.
Oderus Urugus the Myth by Embry Blue

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Embry Blue’s Winter & New Spring Update 2014

The Blueness~

Photo 14I had left my blog absent for 4 months! Eeee… I am coming back around to my creations, having the ability to bring new beings from my mind into a 3-d reality is truly my calling in life, and when I don’t do it. I feel as though there is something missing inside me. Because I am such a weirdo, these beings are like little children to me. Another part of my creative passion is through the makeup medium, from its ability to transform one person into another. . o r into a creature as well. . Ok, let’s face it I like species friends . . . Hmm where did I leave off on this blog..Oh, yes – . My first offical doll show in New York City! It was so special for me. I feel very honored to have the support and opportunity to show my work in such a great gallery. Many of my favorite all time artists have passed through this gallery. Loooove them. ❤ ! Elizabeth Mcgrath, Angie Mason, Jenny Bird Alcantara, Kathie Olivias, Genevive Zacconi,GWAR artists… and sooo many more..

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Custom Makeup Work for Samantha Labrano as Marvel Comic’s “Carnage” – Nude

How nuts these past 3 years have been for me! As an artist, so transformative. I’ve settled into the idea of putting down my

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roots in New York City once and for all. I had moved lastly from the South with my wonderful partner to New York in October worked on my private Halloween makeup clients, had my show, then landed a job at the greatest makeup company I could possibly work for. MAC! I am learning so much with them right now, it’s been such a change of perspective. For someone who’s lived on the fringes of society working with the darkest and creative in New York and California. And now I am covering Beauty! Oh my! Beauty. I feel like a scary boy disguising myself in beauty makeup, it is a challenge. It is completely opening my mind to the lighter and most gentle world of glamour and light. Which I must say I’ve needed a dose of, after all the hardship and heartbreak over the last year. Losing 2 friends to the other side, and 2 friends to life changing crossroads.

I’ve been a dual headed maniac unorganized artist for such a long time, I’ve decided that I would be more mindful and create in a way that could help others and allow people who are interested in my process to view and read my work. – which includes my life and work as it happens.

I have decided to combine my makeup work in special effects, beauty, doll, creature making into one entity. As I am one person. Streamlined – in a way you can see it all crosse over in the development of my work.

I hope you enjoy!

And thank you, for taking the time to read this.


– Blue

MF Gallery Group Toy Show – Brooklyn Fall 2013

TS13Nearly a month has passed, and so much has yet again transpired. In wonderful ways and very very difficult ways. I have made another journey, from the South to New York again for the fall and winter. With my art and little darlings packed we headed on our way. Another friend of mine has passed away, may he rest in peace James Gleason. I am wishing the best for all the people I know, and may they find what they are looking for to full fill their life.

Halloween happened and I had more work come my way. Special thanks to Johnny Madison, Michael Blase, Rita Wu & Vanessa Marek. For fall this year I was invited to be a part of the Annual MF Gallery Art Show in Brooklyn NY on November 16th 2013. So happy to have these dear little ghost children after all the hard work to be put up on display. Thank you Johnny Madison for all the support, and thank you to all who made it out — My mother!, Michael Blase, Kelly Kotulak, Vanessa & Paul/Matt/mom, Rita Wu & Paul, Deniz Golpinar, His lovely wife, Jonny Aquadora, Peter Arvo, Jon Darling & Bridget Dahl!  The dollies are now available through the gallery here:  & New Website New Galleries Here:


How to demonize a baby.. a walk on the fun side of Fall.

A still and eery baby in a thrift shop here in Arkansas jumped into my lap the other week. She/he/it was sitting in a crystal cup, wearing a christmas jumper. As I picked it out of the crystal cup it began to move and play the song “Jesus love me.” Of course! It must be a demon baby, or a kin to Rosemary’s baby. How strange to peer into this little baby’s eyes while it move forward and rotated backward while playing this ridiculous song. Ah HA! Super coooool.

What a treat to see inside this little thing. Tore apart the dressing and found an age old tinker mechanical music box with a protuding and moving slanted metal rod. The doll’s head is injected with this rod and moves once the box is cranked! Oh what wonder, what genius. Absolutely love it! The next day I sculpted a new face for the young boy, and of course some little goat legs. His outfit is sooo luxurious I can’t resist touching it.

The day has come and this creature is born.

Baby Lucifer moves in a circular motion slowly after the wind up in his back is cranked.

The music that plays is “Jesus Loves Me.”

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October 10, 2013 “Baby Lucifer”

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++†† ++ BEATRIX ..ºººOº* The French Circus RABBiT ++ ††+++ºº

ooooOOhh Beatrix. You Cheeky little sneak.

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This little Rabbit was so very lovely to make, I was so happy when she was in my hands. No plans on what going to become of this ball of clay.  I think I found my method. To not over think? Plan?  or hesitate. Just simply jump off the boat and swim. The materials where very nice to work with, I acquired a creme pink faux fur embossed with flower designs circa 1950 in a strange tank of a flea market in Arkansas. I was weary about going in. But as soon as I stepped into the space, it I felt like I was in the South of 1960. -which could be bad, but … Stuffing creatures is now my favorite past time.

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BEATRIX THE FRENCH RABBIT can be Adopted here. Specs:

Rabbit Beatrix measures: 11 inches tall from foot to head. + (Ears are  6 inches) + (Width is 5.5 inches) + (Girth 3 inches)

Hands and feet are attached to the body in a way to allow movement. She can move her arms up and down, and her big feet can swing!

She is a One of a kind piece, to be handled with care. Face is sculpted from polymer clay, and painted with creme based makeup then sealed with a matte sealer.

Her are some pre-photo shoot pix.

Welcome Ghost Orphans ‘Abigail & Georgie’

Welcome to “Honey Willow Orphanage”

Where all the ghost children are forever young and forever orphaned together in their own magical play time at The Honey Willow Orphanage. Although they have passed to another dimension they are still happy to play together.

Here they are together for a portrait.

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Welcome Orphan Abigail, she is the sweetest little one here. She loved watching the other children play and most certainly loved anyone that would hold her precious little body.

She is a 100% handmade Ooak doll from top to bottom. Abigail measures 7.5 inches in length and 3 inches in width, she can fit in the palm of your hand. Face is handsculpted polymer clay painted with makeup and sealed with a matte finish. Her eyes are handmade by Kelly Kotulak of Hibernacula. Her body is made of batting, twigs, and vintage creme fabric. Her dress is also made of the vintage creme fabric and tied around her waist is a beige ribbon adorned with one beige cloth rose. Her neck collar & bonnet is white lace tied in with a sooty white silk ribbon finished with a pink cloth rose. She is posable.

Orphan Ghost Doll “Abigail”

More Orphan Abigail pictures can be found here:   ABIGAIL DETAIL pictures

Welcome Orphan Georgie, he sits in his trouser pondering what fun is to be had. Georgie loves adventure and has a curious wonderment of the world around him. He is quite inquisitive. 

Orphan Georgie is a 100% handmade Ooak doll from top to bottom. Georgie measures 8.5 inches in length and 3 inches in width. Face is handsculpted polymer clay painted with makeup and sealed with a matte finish. His eyes are handmade by Kelly Kotulak of Hibernacula. His body is made of batting, twigs, and vintage creme fabric. His trousers are made of  white tweed cotton and his shirt is made of the vintage creme fabric. The collar is creme colored crotchet, and he wears a creme hoodie attached to his shirt and adorned with one blue cloth rose. He is also posable. I think he looks best with his hand near his mouth because he always looks like he is giggling. Hmm.. Giggley Georgie!

 Orphan Ghost Doll “Georgie”

More Orphan George pictures can be found here:    GEORGIE DETAIL pictures


Ahhh* these dolls were so much fun to make. Although my fingers are pricked and I have permanent krazy glue stuck to them – it is all worth it. I believe more of the children will come out to play. Next session will be the Orphans from the Garden of Honey Willow Orphange. to be continued…


signing out.


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Orphaned Ghost Doll “Hakidonmuya”

Introducing Hakidonmuya, which translates to time of waiting moon in Hopi.

Orphan Ghost Doll Hakidonmuya was the elder of the Ghost children. She is quite different from the others in the orphanage as she was the friend of the children in the orphanage. She would visit the children in their dreams to play with them and counsel them with their troubles. The children did not know she was in fact real. She did  live in the same orphanage many many moons before they. She had been at the orphanage so long she forgot she was once a real person.

Her worry keeps her attention on the children, and she seems to always be in that state.

Hakidonmuya’s clothing is hand sewn using the same beige vintage fabric as her body. She wears a metal rose on her chest and a vintage lace hood that can be pulled back to reveal her hair. Her hair is synthetic and hand sewn into her fabric head.
She also has twig nubs for feet and hands! Her face is sculpted with polymer clay and painted with makeup then sealed with a matte sealer. She is very lightweight and so very adorable.

∆      A special thank you to Kelly Kotulak, she provided these special handmade aura eyeballs for me. Thank you!   ∆

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Hakidonmuya is waiting for the perfect home to protect.

She can be purchased here: Ghost Orphan Hakidonmuya



Orphaned Ghost Doll “Mildred”

She is finished! Her friends from the Orphanage are following close behind. .. stay tuned

The saddened Orphan Ghost Doll Mildred is forever in waiting for a friend. Left alone in her cottage many centuries ago, she sat waiting for her parents to return to her. Later found by the locals and kept at the orphanage. Until one day there was a terrible accident in the Orphanage and all of her friends where gone, and she still does not realize she is dead. She waits and waits for a friend to return.

available here: “Ghost Orphan Mildred” 2013 /// 1913

Her body is hand sewn together with batting, vintage beige fabric, and twigs.

Her clothing is also hand sewn to match her body, and adorned with crochet ribbon.
She has twig nubs for feet and hands.
Her hair is a multi light fiber, it seems to glow blue and white when light shines through it.
Her face is sculpted with polymer clay and painted with makeup then sealed with a matte sealer.
Her hood can be pushed back.

∆      A special thank you to Kelly Kotulak, she provided these special handmade aura eyeballs for me. Thank you!   ∆

Her Cabinet of Curiosity Shoppe is beautiful. There are truly some one of kind jewelry pieces here. Each one is so special. I love how there is mythology and folklore attached to every piece. ❤  “Hibernacula” can be found here:

Hibernacula & Hibernacula Facebook Page

Mildred  was so much fun to make. I’m in love. ❤

Embry Blue © 2013
Embry Blue © 2013

Summer Days With Coo

KidsZone_Coo_CoverWhat an absolutely beautiful and moving animated film. My heart broke so many times through out this film. I could not believe how stressed I was to watch this creature go through so much human bullshit. Coo is the main character and he is a Kappa, which is a swamp river creature. He is so beautiful, delicate, smart and just so well done. The smartest creature I’ve ever seen on film, so very real. Ahhh, right from the beginning his father gets murdered in front of him. An earthquake comes along and traps the little  “Coo” into the earth. Centuries later a little boy finds him as a stone, and there he is. Aww, man I really felt for this creature the whole time. All he want to do was find his kind and find his home.

Picture 9Eventually he finds out what happened to his kind, of course murdered by humans. So, throughout this film he goes through adjustments and heartbreaking realizations.

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“Larry the Alien from Arkansas” – Embry Blue 2013

I can really relate to him on so many levels. I felt like he was someone I already knew. I am very inspired to make a creature like him. Larry the Alien is like Coo to me. Made of the nature around him, weird looking but so harmless.

I appreciated the way the director expressed Coo’s perspective on humans.. In a way to show the viewer how the rest of the world might view humans. The ancient spirits, the animals, nature, these forces exist and co-exist – but humans separate themselves from the experience. As if to not believe they share a space. So throughout the film Coo is perplexed by the behavior of humans. Coo has in depth conversations with the family dog using telepathy. The general public finds him, wants to see him, expose him, etc. etc. Until he just wants to kill himself. 😦

I highly recommend this film, it will rip your heart out. So beautifully done. Summerdays_with_Coo river

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∆ Orphaned Ghost Children on the way.. ∆

∆  Hi. These past few months have been life changing, and very very difficult to get through. After my friends passing I just haven’t been able to get back to life. But I’m getting back to work and really look forward to making my life fun, happy, productive.  I know he is in another place, and his spirit lives on. The dolls I am working on now, I’m picking up from the day I found out about my friend. I was working on their faces the time of his passing, and haven’t been able to get back to work on them. ∆

Embry Blue∆  Yesterday and today I started. Ghost Orphan Children. These children are excited to live with the living, they are soo cute and enduring. Faces are sculpted with Polymer clay. For these ones I’m trying a whole new technique. Let’s see how it goes! ∆Ghost Dolls01Embry Blue

R.I.P “James Blackthorn Bentley” September 5th 1976 – July 22nd 2013 : My Eulogy to Jim

Image    It is with great sadness in my heart as I write this. It still hasn’t fully come down on me that Jim, Jim! Is dead…I am completely shocked. I heard the news on the morning of July 23rd. The skies here in Arkansas were darkening. I couldn’t believe it. As the news and details came in,

“The sky became cloaked in the darkest grey clouds I have seen.                                                                                                  The storms rolled in. It  became the longest day of lighting and thunder rolling off the deep woods into the late night. One point in the day the clouds opened up and with a tiny light shining through, the light was filtered muddy as if all things lay inside a dream. The sky grey and red, all that was reflected  soft and grey. I thought Jim must have been there. I can’t express the emptiness and guilt that came with that day.”

Jim was funny, loving, nuturing, crazy, inspiring, brilliant, an engineering genius and weirdo –  and we all loved him so much. He was one of the most geniuine and sincere as a person could be. He had something so special – he truly was himself and could see right through every person to find their real self.    He was    –   selfless and cared so much about other people he would always go out of the way to do what was right for them. He showed me and Rabbits  great kindness.. .

Martini glass stuck in the wall at XPO. .
photo: Andy Mecca

It was only last summer that our XPO crew was melting away in the Fort, planning the events and business challenges at XPO with Game of Thrones playing on  loop in the background at the Fort. These past 2 years we worked hard, partied hard, struggled and built together with Jim and the crew. One solid group of friends/misfits/freaks- Jonny Aquadora, Jim Bentley, Johnny Madison (Rabbits), Lulu Cipher, and myself Embry Blue (the Blue Witch), and later on Michael Ban or as Jim called him “Chimmey Chow!.” Last summer we’d party with Jim, laugh at his crazy stunts and work side by side with him. Like the  many times he broke glasses at the bar. The martini glass in the wall- Of course – Only Jim. He had a sincere gentle heart, he loved and cared for people – I can’t say that enough. A true rarity in today’s world. He hurt and felt the pain of others, had a sense of justice & truth. He worked hard and had pride in accomplishing the impossible. Night after night daybreak after daybreak. We’d be in the basement climbing through rumble and grime and always felt a sense of duty. 

Jim on top of the bar that he built with Jonny Aquadora & Rabbits. With the silver mannequins I lugged over from Queens that day for the bar. photo: Embry Blue

My experience with Jim was through Party Xpo. I know a lot of people have a love hate relationship with this place, as do I. But this is the place all of us really became a supernatural pirate ship, —————sailing away night after night.

we played this song night after night. before the xpo shows. gearing up for the bands after working together all day to get the space ready for them…

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Jim had put in a tremendous amount of work at Xpo. Building constantly, improving the sound quality, making sure all the bands were taken care of loading them in hanging out with the bands downstairs. Just truly loving the community. I’m sure all can attest to his sincerity and lust for life just to be with you at that moment. I’m sorry Jim! I’m Sorry Jim! I’m Sorry Jim. I”m sorry I’m Sorry. I”m sorry  im sorry im sorry.  . I wished we would have stayed . …….

this song we play almost every night at XPO while beat, warped, and heading out . singing along with each other every night. No matter what , it always felt like we where there for each other.  . . no matter what all the dramas where… we where all still glad to be with each other. . . 

My heart beats out of my chest as I write this, and can’t help to break down and cry every time I continue to write this. I know I must say something, I was not able to say anything at his funeral memorial – I just couldn’t bear it – but I  need to say something  – his life was precious – and I know – he was precious – I know – I know . Time is still not enough to make this any easier.  His Birthday was yesterday, . I was in NY with the ones who where with him the last days., this is and was the worst thing to deal with. How does one prepare to face such a tragic and guilty circumstance. If If If IF If iF if fifiififiifififi.

is all we are able to think about.  he needed us and didn’t want to say because selfish is just not jim. and we know it.

I lived with him and he was the best person to live with. He felt others before he could feel himself. He hated the world and what it did to people. I loved how he just wanted to “hang out” just to be with you. He wanted to work and make others happy.  I loved Jim, you can never know a person like him .  I wish I would have expressed my appreciation of him. I know Rabbits did, I ‘m just not the sort of person to say things like that. —-Through this I realize how important it is to tell people how much you love and appreciate them. You never know what they are going through. They will never tell you. Just tell them you love them. 😦

They will never tell you. they will never tell you . . .

this is still hard to understand and deal with  😦

RIP Dennis Anver August 27th 1958 – November 5th 2012

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“Stalking Cat”

So sad to hear of Dennis Anver’s passing. I am always moved by someone who has the courage to full heartedly put their lives into what they believe in. I truly believe all people should follow their highest passion, in finding themselves and living it. He was an example of that. After all, the most important things are what makes you feel yourself and gives you a place in the spectrum of mediocrity that surrounds us. .

Dennis Avner, who was of Lakota and Huron heritage, was famous for having changed his appearance with tattoos, implants, and surgeries and other accessories that included contact lenses, custom-made teeth, and false whiskers. He also was known to wear a large prosthetic tail.

His reason for such extreme modifications, he said, was a Native tradition. According to Shannon Larratt, Avner “identified strongly with his feline totem animals and in what he told me was a Huron traditional of actually adopting the physical form of ones totem, he transformed himself not just into a tiger, but a female tiger at that.” Avner’s formal totem-derived name was “Stalking Cat,” although his friends called him Cat or Tiger.

– “indian country today media network”

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Insidious II Competition “In The River . . “

“King Killer Spirit & Doll”

King Spiritw-doll edit smallFinished! Entry into the Insidious II Competition. What a week! Many concerned looks from the folks at the River. I guess carrying around a wet doll with deamon attached look a little like a wet baby?! Oops! The Baptism is complete. Whew.

This is the final image.  .

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you can have a look at the rest of the contest here. .

web-Insidious _ King Killer River Spirit & Doll ii_Embry Blue– In The River –
A river runs through the wooded hills of Gulpha Gorge, Arkansas.
Beneath a bridge is a hidden portal of evil. A beautiful doll floats down the dark waters of the Gorge where it is found by Annabelle, a young girl camping with her parents for the Summer.
But her delight quickly turns to terror as the evil spirit in the doll possesses her and she begins performing violent and sadistic rituals on the other campers at the National Park.

“The doll your daughter found in the river has something inside it…Something evil…And now it is inside of her”.

Native Peace


Native PeaceYesterday I celebrated my grandmother’s 77th Birthday.  I have not had the chance to celebrate a birthday with her for many many years. She has been a very important figure in my life in shaping my strength and views. I have seen through the years how much she has handled and how resilient one can be. Having come from a Native American [Chumash Indian] family raising her siblings, and pushing through the years of inequality. I am amazed over and over again, in what she had accomplished.  For example, last night I learned how she used to swing from canyon rocks excavating ancient grounds locating Native American Artifacts for the museums! What?! They used to call her “Rambo.”  Well her name does actually translate to “Hard Rock.”

We celebrated with family and my amazing partner had sung some of her favorite songs while playing guitar. Truly a wonderful night for her and the family. I am lucky to have the time to appreciated it.

Grandma Petra
Grandma Petra

I made her something to represent her strength and  honor in our heritage. I know through the years of her era growing up 30s, 40s, 50s, and so on. These years where very hard on races, especially Native’s. So much so, that Native’s where in fact forced to give up and be ashamed of their heritage! They were forced to cut their hair short and be a part of white society. Starting with my great grandmother Josephine, whom was taken from her family and forced into Mission Orphanages. These were set up to eradicate Native American culture. And in a word to “missionize” them. Give them religion, and strip them of culture. Unbelievable, right? There are many, many injustices in this world, and that was just one point.  – Anyho I made her a figure set in a Native background. .representing “Native Peace.”


Bubble bubble Bubble.. Monsterous thing are so much trouble.

Jan Svankmejer
Jan Svankmejer

I’ve been working on quite an array of things lately. Just launched my shop on Etsy. I have a shelf full of dollies to finish off. And I can not wait to create more. I must catch these new ideas before it’s too late. But before I get to them, I am working on a very special project, in which I only have 1 more week to finish. This one is soooooo freeeeeeAKy!

Super Freak. For example, I cover it before I sleep. AAAAAAAhhhhh…    I’ll explain more of it when it’s done. When it is done….For the love of death! Jonathan Davis will be finished! Some surprises on him too. For the meantime I leave you with this image. … Hehehe.

Creature A Day III ∆

"Tumm Tumm" born June 3rd, 2013. Redhook - Brooklyn, NY.
“Tumm Tumm” born June 3rd, 2013. Redhook – Brooklyn, NY.


Tumm Tumm

Getting ready to pack up and put the ole’ dolls back in the case. Here we go for round 1,000. But before I take off from here. I’ve aimed at creating 1 creature a day, but as time stands I can come pretty close to that. I lay before you a strange and wondrous creature. He was made when feeling just the way he looks.  Completely out of my mind. But all in good fun, nothing really matters anyway. 🙂

Creature a Day

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Ceasar Le Bleu .  born May 26, 2013

Creature A Day. I found myself stifled by the number of things going on in my life, with the matter of not having the time to put my thoughts into my work. Yes, Jonathan is still awaiting his next move, in which he will be getting a few props to play with. Oh what a demon he is becoming. – So, instead of feeling a bit of a lose from it. I’ve decided to follow some advice, and make something regardless. SO here we are with Creature A Day* Although, I usually ponder what is coming up next and where to take it. These little guys bring themselves out. I just don’t know where they are coming from, but they form between my fingers. And I must say they are quite cute! What! Cute, yes cute. I make cute. Yes, yes yes..

Back to New York

traveling puppet masterSetting up shop here in Red Hook, Brooklyn. During this current journey, I can easily see myself as the old man in Puppet Master traveling with his case of dolls. Only if I had that case! Oh the steamy concrete of New York, how I do not miss you!. Summer. Oh, great.  Time to get working on JD again, he traveled right beside me the whole trip on the journey from Arkansas to New York on that classic American Railway – Amtrak. 2 days on the train, traveling via train makes one appreciate the simple times of not having your bags when flying having them checked for weapons and monsters. Well, this doll seems to be getting more and more devilsh. wuaua uuuuuahhhhh ha ha


I’m overcome by Noxious peeling away.

Picture 7The flesh of this doll, reveals itself to be more than I had prepared for. I like the technique I am using but somewhat taken back by the realistic qualities. Smearing the thick blood on the sculpture, feeling the ribcages ….. give me a sense of having an ability to animate what I am creating. Almost like when I sculpt a mouth and teeth and then I feel like I am violating the creature by sticking my surgical tools into their mouth. Eeek! I know, it’s a bit weird. But  I take it very seriously. I cant post the picture yet. But trust me, it’s fairly vile. ?